Through Death And Beyond

The sky was dark. The room was cold. And I had a nightmare.

I had been fighting for long, and I was tired. A part of me had started to believe that I was witnessing the last of my sunsets.
The storms had me trapped in for so long that I had forgotten that any calm ever existed in this world.
And then you came.
Almost like those blissful showers on the barren ground that barely knew how to pull itself together, you came. I wouldn't have known how cold and numb I was if you hadn't cared enough to pull the quilt over my rugged feet. For the first time in forever, I felt warm, I felt protected, I felt loved, inside and out. Help came, and with it- a home.

But what is life without the change of seasons?

The winds reversed direction, and so did I. I am grateful for I realised soon enough that I had given much more than I had taken. No, not love; but problems, sorrows, miseries. What else could this pauper know?

I remembered those times when I would lie by the side of the road- helpless, hopeless and a lot more dirty. I'd silently scream, not for pity, but for help, and then wait for a pair of ears to pick up those vibrations, wait for a head to turn towards whatever that was left of me. Yes, God takes different forms to help His children, but mine was a beautiful one.

I would not even try to express my gratitude for I know I would never be able to repay you; not in this life.

No more debts, please, no more debts.

For now, the vagrant must leave. Don't come looking. With all the strength you've given me, I can easily walk a mile or two. And then, I must rest.

I must willingly give away myself to the inevitable before it comes for me. But do not worry. I have now watched the sun rise a lot more times than I expected or deserved. Do not worry, for I will carry you in my heart until the very end.

I will carry you in my heart through death
and beyond.

Author's Note

I am so sorry I haven't been reviewing all those who have reviewed my work. School has been hectic, with all the tests and exams, but I'm going to make it up to you all.

Reviews

[Julie McCarthy (juliesp..]

beautiful zoe love this so much
and dont apologise
your school and tests and exams are important
dont feel guilty about anything you do or dont do
no one expects you to sit up and give reviews there is only so much time and hours in a day
sleep rest work play
dont feel guilty ok? plz

[Zoya]

Thank you for your kind words, Julie! That means so much to me. Not going to feel guilty :))

[Riddhi]

Dear Zoe , don't feel sorry..Your exams are more important than the reviews here..I liked this story..I loved the main theme Through Death and Beyond and the way you expressed it was worth appreciating..I loved the way you described everything...As a writer, you have that power to keep reader engulfed in your story's thought as he or she reads it..I loved the flow and the transition between para..Not for a single moment , I felt that something was mismatched..You know this writing is that kind of writing which come directly from someone's hearts which is full of pure emotions...I really loved this piece of writing ..
Great work and keep it up..
Keep on writing and Thanks for sharing..
Take care..
Riddhi....

[Zoya]

Thank you so much for the detailed review, Riddhi! I'm really happy you liked it :)

[Wild Rose]

Dont worry Zoe about being inactive on here - Your exams must have priority I hope you did well in them

I think this excellent - It is almost as if it were yourself you write about

[Zoya]

I think I did fine in the exams, thank you!
And thank you for the feedback! Always looking forward to it :)

[Najam Us Saher]

Very descriptive as always. I liked the change in the scenery while you wrote about the protagonist's feelings.
All the best wishes for your exams. Make your parents proud :)

[Zoya]

Thank you so much for your wishes and review, Najam! Very much appreciated, as always :)

[Najam Us Saher]

You are always welcome :)

[wordman]

this is a deep write zoe,and very beautiful

[Zoya]

Thanks a lot, wordman! Appreciate it :)

[wordman]

my pleasure zoe

[AllauraRose]

This is soooo good! It is very well written and I love the mood of the story! It did take a turn, but it's pretty good! Great job!

[Zoya]

Thank you so much, Allaura! I really appreciate the time and review :))

[Suhd]

This is so pure, going right through the heart, told with such ease and clarity. It's always this kind of stuff that transports you from this silly world of profit. Amazing stuff.
Cheers and good to see ya back!

[Zoya]

Thank you so much for your ever so kind words, Suhd! Always appreciate them. Good to see you too :)

[Suhd]

Always a pleasure :)