I Win

8-10-09 Yes, the porcelin mask line is referencing my poem of same name, it all goes together...

I always knew I'd be
the one pushed out
of the family dynamic
there was hardly a doubt
people are scared
of honesty and truth
but it is who I am
so what can I do?
Spin a web of deceit
complicated enough
to keep them free of me?
A porcelin mask
that won't hold without glue
re-adjust everyday
is it getting to you?
You are the weak-minded
with something to prove
so uncomfortably uncomfortable
with just being you.
I can accept who I become
including those faults
that come with the territory
of all that I've won.

Author's Note

ok I'm not sure about the ending...I keep wanting to go with "of all that I am", but it doesn't rhyme, but it does flow...so I don't know, give me advice.