The Christmas tree

The Christmas tree

A Poem by Melba

The Christmas Tree. 5/2/08
I sitt in this living room
darkness surrounds me
except for the lights on the tree
the tree and its lights that make everything glow
and a light in my heart comes on..
and i think of you
i wonder
i wish it was you and me
in this place
at this time
embracing you
embracing me.
... and I miss you
And maybe in another time and place
it would probably be just you and i
i sit here in  this living room
and this moment becomes the saddest in my heart
anyone else would think that this is a beautiful scene
but not for me
for you are not here.
you are in another place and in another time
alone
Are you alone or are you also
just killing time until...
but i...
i get in the way of things
but no..
it shouldn't be you
someone else has taken your place
someone else has taken what is yours
and yet here i am
yours in spirit
and in mind
but you cant have all of me
not yet
maybe some day.
maybe
until then
i sit here staring at these lights
this beautiful tree
standing in the dark
with its iridescent lights flickering
lighting just a tiny bit of my heart
when i think of you.