Back Then

This is for you who never really knew me

You had assumptions that weren’t part of me

Secrets I kept; all the parts I didn’t want you to see

You could never hope to understand me

 

Yeah, I walked away from my family

She was too far in my head, my skin bled

The Devil’s blade I allowed to burn me

Cuz the pain in and out couldn’t be shed

 

Travelled across the seas for my sanity

Couldn’t let them take away the best of me

Living life that way there was no rest for me

Can you understand that without your pity?

 

Knew I was so far out of my depth

But there was no time to catch my breath

Back then survival was all I ever had

Whispers in my ear wanted me dark and bad

 

Too long I stood out in the city cold

Lost and frostbitten without love

Too quickly I gave it up and aged old

Innocence thrown away with the kid gloves

 

Let too many of them sleep next to me

They all thought they could f--k with me

But none of them could ever hope to see

I was gone the moment they touched me

 

Guilt and anger tried to take me for a ride

Whispered the way to the dark side

But I knew better than to take their hand

Cuz I still had enough will to stand

Reviews

[pinpen]

i liked the 6th stanza so much, powerful emotions.

[patricia]

loved the fifth stanza in this along with all the moving rest of it.

[ba_mcfarlane]

There is no middle ground here. No shading, no colour at all, All stark, all sharp edged and harsh, in black and white. This reads as cathartic; a purging demanded for your emotional survival. The message is unyielding, relentless. Your message was received.
This was a painful read. This is a courageous piece.

[Josh Arcelo]

although i dislike your censorship of the curse word, i like the poem as a whole. i say do not be afraid of what you say, just make sure you say it right. here you've said what you needed to say and got it out, also infecting the reader with the emotion. nice work

[just is]

I can feel the heartfilled emotions through out this piece.

[Distant horizons]

And the last line is the most important as that is who the person in this has become, through all adversity. This could have been such a negative piece but the persons true self never diminished. Beautifully told.