A confession

"Just close your eyes and take a deep breath... tell me what you see..."

 

No. Just no. 

 

At all, no. This wouldn't make any kind of change at all. Not erasing my memories, not giving me the worst pain that you could imagine. No. All I could do was say 'no'. Over and over, say 'no'. But they held me down. They tied me down. They covered my mouth as I would feel my tears rush down my face, my eyes would burn because of the sweat. Resistance, pain... blood. Or maybe worse.

 

"Just..."

 

NO. Shut up, old man! I have to go back, I have to go back to my wife, my children. To the family that I created. A world where I created that everything was beautiful, everything was perfect. Nothing, but nothing would be at ease. Everything was flowers and candies for my family, but you... you f*****g m**********r ruined it all. LET ME GO, I SAY! UNHAND ME, DEMON!

 

"Close your eyes..."

 

NO! It wasn't my fault at all. I did everything to save them! Why nobody believes me? Why nobody believes this poor sinner?! Why do you hurt me?! I never did any harm to anyone!! STOP IT! I SAY! STOP IT! MAKE IT STOP!

 

"You must relax..."

 

HOW THE F**K YOU WANT ME TO RELAX, YOU INSENSITIVE SON OF A B***H?! How the f**k you expect me to relax after everything?! My family, my wife, my kids.... THE DOG!! THEY ARE OUT THERE!! WITHOUT ME!! I'm supposed to protect them, to take care of them!! STOP IT! STOP IT, GODDAMN IT! It wasn't me at all! I didn't pull the trigger! I was trying to protect them! PLEASE... please....

 

"He won't relax at all..."

 

No... 

No...

NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

 

IT WAS ME!!!! I DID IT, I DID IT!! I DID IT!!! MAKE ME PAY! MAKE ME PAY! MAKE ME ROT IN HELL!! In all ways, I will see them! I will kill them, over and over and over! Without thinking about it. I will make them suffer! After all those years... no...

 

"..."

 

It wasn't me at all...

...no.