three

I have not been out of my house in almost a month. Mom comes in the room and checks on me then  goes to work. When she comes home from work she checks on me. Then she puts my dinner under my bedroom door. I haven’t even seen Blade, or anyone else. Luis got imprisoned a week after I got home. My mom started knocking on my door.

“Elyzah, come out here please.” She said. I unlocked my door and walked into the kitchen. There was Blade. He sat at my kitchen table, twiddling his thumbs. 

“Hey Elyzah. Can I talk to you?” He asked. I sat down at the table as mom went into her room. I looked down, then back up and he just stared at me. He looked different. He pierced his eyebrow and now his hair was black. But I could never forget his face. 

“I miss you, Elyzah. So does Liza and Star. Marah is mad at herself. She will get over it. I think you should come back out.” 

“I don’t want to go outside looking like this.” I grabbed my hair and showed him. My blonde hair was stained from me laying in the mud so long. It looked nasty. I was not going out there like this. 

“We can dye your hair. I think a blue black would suit you. I die my hair all the time.”

“Yes! Dye her hair! Get her out the house, please,” said my mom, running out of her room. I looked at my mom and nodded. She smiled and went back to her room. I seen the text me look on her face. She is worried, and so is Blade. I don’t blame them.

Blade took my hand and led me to my room. He grabbed a pair of my clothes and threw them at me. Then he started to walk down to his place. I followed him. He picked me off the ground and carried me to his kitchen. He pulled out hair dye and smiled. 

“Are you ready?”

“Do I have a choice?” He stopped and thought for a minute. 

“Nope.” I nodded and he began. 

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I rinsed out my hair like he said, and I looked in the mirror. It looked so cool. I ran my fingers through it and he walked in. He hugged me from behind and smiled with me in the mirror. 

“Can you go out now?” He asked. 

“Sure.” I said, brushing my hair. He grabbed my waist and spun me around to face him. He smiled at me. I knew he wanted to kiss me. You just get that feeling from guys when they want too. I knew Blade wouldn’t hurt me. He leaned in for the kiss. I helped him. I pulled him closer, and then our lips met. I felt like I was on fire. Blade felt so warm, that I could hardly breathe. I felt like I was going to melt. He put his hands around my waist and would not let me unlocked my lips. We just kept going. I never wanted to stop, but we had to sometime. Then finally he unlocked his lips, still holding me, and smiled. What do you say after your first kiss? 

“Thank you.” He said. 

“For what?” I asked, laughing a little. 

“For letting me kiss you. I thought since, you know-” I cut him off. Then I smiled. “Your welcome.” I said. He held my hand and told me to change my clothes so we could go out. 

After I stepped out of his bathroom, he grabbed my hand and we left out the back door. I stepped outside and there was Star, Liza, and Marah by the new couch. The new couch was bigger, and it was red. The girls stood up and looked at me, like I was about to go to prom or something. Then a guy walked over to Liza and smiled up at me. I looked over at Blade. 

“That’s just Tim. He is Liza’s new boyfriend. He wont hurt a fly, I promise.” He said squeezing my hand tighter. I nodded and then we went down to everyone. 

Star hugged me as soon as I got there. Liza smiled real big and Marah walked over to me. She looked really sad. “I am so sorry. I never thought hat he would-” I cut her of before she got too upset. I lifted her head up and wiped her tears. “It’s not your fault. It has been a month. I am still hurting but it’s not because of you Marah.” She hugged me then sat down. Then Star stood up. 

“Hey! You dyed your hair.” She pointed out. I nodded and held my hair in my hand. “Yes, my blonde did not like mud.” Everyone stopped smiling. Then I got up and headed for the park. I motioned everyone to follow. It was starting to get late. So nobody followed but Blade. 

We got to the park and it was empty. I ran over to the monkey bars and tried to do them. Blade watched and laughed as I kept falling. I started to walk around the park when Blade ran up to me and pinned me down on a slide. He smiled and laughed. “Your not suppose to slide like this.” I said. Then he kissed me again. This time, I would not let him unlock his lips. He didn’t care. He unlocked his lips and kissed my neck. I let him. I was scared this would lead to more. I don’t know if I was ready after one month. He kept going, and I let him. He met my lips again. I loved the way it felt to kiss him. Each time, I felt like I was going to turn into a melted popsicle. He stopped and looked at me. I didn’t want him to stop now. I nodded and then he came with the kissing again. But this time he lifted off my shirt. He started to kiss me all over, and I couldn’t help but let out a sound of excitement. Off came his clothes, then the rest of mine. We were outside, in a kids park, at night, having sex. I loved every bit of it. 

We finished with making out. We were both out of breath and we didn’t care. I loved the way he held me, and I didn’t want him to let go. He got up and tried to find our clothes. When he did, we got dressed then laid back down on the slide. 

“Are you okay?” He asked. 

“I’m great,” I said, smiling. 

“I think it is time for you to go home.” He sighed.

“I don’t want to.” I got closer and cuddled with him. I didn’t want this moment to end. I think I love him. He held me close and kissed the top of my head. I closed my eyes, and fell asleep. 

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Blade woke me up by kissing my cheeks. I looked up at him, and up at the sky. The sun was just about to rise. I started to laugh. “My mom is probably going crazy.” I said. “Nope,” He said, pulling out my phone. “She knows you’re okay.” I smiled up at him, then we kissed again. 

Blade helped me off the slide, then we walked back to the couch. It took a few minutes to get there, and when we did get there, Star was laying on the couch. Blade and I ran over and woke her up.

“Why are you out here Star?” I asked her. 

“I got into a fight with my mother about Liza and her boyfriend. Liza and I share a room, and they tried to get it on while I was in there. So I left and never went back.” 

“I am sorry. You can stay with me.” I offered. 

“Thanks Lyz. I would like that.” I helped her off the couch and Blade walked us to my house. I kissed Blade and he went home. Star and I went into the kitchen. My mom heard us and came out. 

“Hey Elyzah, who is your friend?” she asked.

“I am Star. Elyzah is going to let me stay in her room with her for a couple days. Well, if that’s okay with you.” Star said. 

“It is fine. Make yourself at home.” Mom was already dressed for work and she smiled at me. I knew she wanted to ask. I looked at her like, just do it. 

“So, did you and Blade, have fun?” Mom said, laughing. 

“Yes mom. We had fun. At the park.” I said, laughing hard. 

“At the park? Oh wow Elyzah. I feel sorry for the kids who have play on that park today.” Star looked up at me in shock. “You and Blade got in on at the park?” She started to laugh. “Yes.” 

My mom left for work, and Star passed out on my bed. So, I went outside and sat on the porch.  I looked at the couch, the little kids playing tag, the old guys drinking, and Luis’ house. I went down stairs to the couch. Then I walked down the road to the park. No kids were there. I went to the slide where it happened between Blade and I. I sat back on the slide and looked up at the sky. I remembered when Blade said he likes to look at the sky, day or night. 

I laid on the slide and just started thinking. In a month and a half of living here, I have found friends, been raped, had sex, smoked weed, and dyed my hair. What would of happened if I have never left my dad? I probably would of still been with Luke the lacrosse player. 

I got up off the slide and went over to the tire swing. I sat down facing the fence. I tried to push myself, when I felt someone behind me. They pushed me high up and started to laugh. When I spun, I seen Blade there. What a relief. He scared me. 

“Jump into my arms!” He yelled up to me. 

“No! Are you crazy?” I yelled back.

“Trust me!” I couldn’t ignore that statement. So I closed my eyes and jumped off the swing. In an instant, I felt Blades arms around my body. I sighed really loud and Blade laughed.

“You think I would drop you?” He asked.

“No. Just scared. When did you get here?”

“I seen you get off the slide. So I snuck over to push you.”

“Cool. How did you know I was at the park?”

“You weren’t home.” He laughed. He laid me on the park bench and got on top of me. He ran his fingers through my hair, and kissed me. I couldn’t help but kiss him back. I have never felt this way about someone before. I didn’t even know how I felt. It is just a rush of happiness. 

Blade looked up real quick, and said “Sit up.” I sat up and seen officer Reed walking towards us. I stood up and walked towards him. 

“Your mother Elyzah.” He said.

“What happen?” I said panicking

“She was in a car accident. She is in the hospital. She is on support.”

“Like, life support?”

“Yes. The truck hit her head on and punctured one lung.” I fell to the ground and started to cry. I seen Blade run over and felt him hold me. He looked up at the officer and asked, “Is she conscious?” The officer put his head down and said, “No. She cant breathe by herself. There is not enough oxygen in her body.” 

I cried all the way to the hospital to see mom. Blade held me close in the back of the police car. My world is falling apart. Blade knows what comes next. I just don’t want to think about. Death and going back to live with Dad. I prayed my hardest, even though I did not believe in God.  

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