a young writer's affirmations

you will never feel wanted

you will never move on

youll force yourself into a cycle

not regretting,

but asking

"what is it i did wrong"

you will blame yourself

for your inflicted curse

youll repeat every moment

grotesquely obsessively

infinitely

to point at the moment you were lost

everyone around you

will either leave you or die

youll be forced to wander

and wonder

and rip at your insides

like it was your own damn fault

youll throw yourself

into that godforsaken loop

so you can remember their touch

so maybe you could feel

but you wont

theyre gone, and youre alone

Reviews

[Beren]

Dude how the hell we are at the same age?
I can’t help but thinking about your own snow covered way, might be hard to walk. But I’m here you know that, right?
And I hell know that you okay! You are just a poet, so that’s normal!

For the poem,
This is a good candidate to be my favorite. I mean, so deep and in the overthinker’s mind. So hard on yourself, full of blame.
Dark.
Powerful.
Title did the job again

[jacob erin-cilberto]

This really hit me. I am of that age at which I am losing so many friends to illness or older age.
And then I think back to those lost many years ago, who died too soon.
As Neil Diamond sang..."being done too soon"
a very sad piece....and a question many of us might ask...What did I do wrong to lose all these people close to me? Is it somehow my fault?
lots of feeling in this write.