Vision

A reflective poem about the overwhelming search for fulfillment, the weight of desire, and the clarity that comes with self-acceptance.

I’ve been searching for one thing all my life but when I squint to try and narrow it down my vision always blurs,

And millions, millions of specs of what I think to be my several desires seep through my every organ,

Swimming out of my shaken breath, lingering and hibernating in each part of me.

And I feel everything I’ve ever wanted and longed for all at once-

Like a sudden rush of a wave that engulfs my body whole.

But the feeling overwhelms me far too much

And I don’t like to get wet.

So I shut my eyes tight so it cannot see me nor get in, and dry off my damp skin with more of my damp skin,

Trying to avoid the thought that I don’t know what I want

And why I want it

And why I try again and again only to experience the same consistent, unfilled hole.

As I have walked further into the years,

The specs of millions have become billions,

And at the age of almost 20 I have learned that squinting has only led to my own guilt,

So I have learned to wear glasses.

And I can see much clearly now.

And I can see all along that what I had wanted was indeed one thing

As I have thought it to be; 

Myself.

Only, 

without the glasses,

And without the guilt.

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Hard to do. We must accept ourselves and we must like who we are.
"And I can see much clearly now.
And I can see all along that what I had wanted was indeed one thing
As I have thought it to be;
Myself.
Only,
without the glasses,
And without the guilt"
Dear Catherine. I liked the honest words above. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote

[Catherine]

Coyote I appreciate it so much:)

[Coyote Poetry]

I enjoyed your work and you are welcome dear Catherine.

[Dave W.]

What is the inspiration for this poem, I have now read a few of them, they are all good but I wonder what this one particularly is about.

[Catherine]

I'm going to be honest, I sit down and words just start to flow out through my fingers. I don't know what i'm going to be writing about until I can actually picture it. So for this one, I began to visualize a girl, standing at the ocean, longing for something and anything. It truly is hard to say what my inspo is, I would like to say I take it from deep within my self without realizing it, or I take it from observing the people I am close to.

[Dave W.]

Very nice, mine is usually the emotions I am dealing with at the moment

[Bobisnotmyuncle]

Lmao, forgot to actually add the, "rating". There you go

[Bobisnotmyuncle]

"Only, without the glasses, and without the guilt", I liked how you ended your poem. And tying, "Like a sudden rush of wave" with, "and I don't like to get wet", is a nice creative touch. It's a poem that makes me feel what its like for you to feel, so I think it best that you are doing well. However, I have noticed you have waited to post these pieces all today on Christmas. So, I hope that your day is going well. And if not, you are not alone.

[Catherine]

Aw thank you and haha yes I did post these all on Christmas, only because that was the day I happened to find this website and I got excited and decided to post some of my favourite works. Thank you for the concern though I am doing well, have a nice day and thank you for the thoughtful words :)