Deep Meditation

A poem of nothingness, or is it somethingness!! A reflection and meditation of all that goes on inside of me, and possibly you.

As i sit at the table,

My headphones are blaring whatever song the random shuffle has on my ipod.

I sit in a room empty of life other than myself,

Just a dim light overhead and a glare from the computer screen.

Thoughts flow through my mind,

Nothing imparticular.

I think of how I am alone inside,

I have friends and family around but yet feel alone.

Have I not found what it is I am searching for,

Do I know what that is?

I think of the hurt I have felt in my time on this earth,

Is it a result of hurt I may have caused?

Questions like these continually arise in my mind,

Answers I can never discover.

When will I be able to move on,

I do not wish to be stuck at this point of my life.

I plead in my mind for me to regain control of my situation,

Has control ever been something I possessed?

I fear I overthink things that are not to be left to me,

As if to think we as people are as important and powerful as we think.

If only i could stop the mind from drifting off,

But how and has that ever been done?