Untitled V

I smiled
Well, it was more like the ghost of a smile
When fate plays her hand
What more can anyone do?
"Life must go on"
The song sang
And all I can think is...
That's the problem
And I wish
That when the sun sets
The night would never end
Let me sleep
Forever sleep
Live in dreamlands
Even a nightmare would do
Keep falling in a bottomless abyss
Rather than wake up
Just to keep going on
When all that you lived for
When all that you want
When all that you've dreamt of
Are things you can never have

I am down
By now you would have guessed
Down and rambling again
But I won't cry out
No raised voices for me
I suffer in silence
As I loved in silence
As I desired in silence
Kept it hidden
Now I must keep this hidden
I rail against fate
But the guilty are my hands
Too scared? Too lazy?
Or just indifferent?
I don't know anymore

So now I am
Blaming the voiceless
Blaming the abstract
I am absolved
But there's nothing in it
A momentary satisfaction
Set against perpetual sorrow
A ghost of a smile
Set against the burden of regrets

But then
I don't think I believe
What I've just said
Deep down
Where thoughts form
Where will is forged
I know I'll keep going on
Life must go on
I sing along
But I will admit
Sometimes I do wish
I can keep sleeping
And never wake up
But that's just a wish
Morning comes
A new day to face
I drag myself along
Who's to say
I won't find something better
Than what I have dreamt of
Somewhere along this road
Somehow
And find myself saying
Life does go on

Reviews

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. ah ... continuity ... do you know that even if we don't consciously try to ... we carry that which is meaningful ... i moved on from my past ... completely ... but i didn't leave behind my soul mate ... who is trapped in a strange place ... (mostly in his head which is why he is trapped in that place) ... and every time i come across something beautiful or something inspiring i send it to him ... just so that he knows ... he is moving too ... we never lose our momentum even if we miss out the opportunity to celebrate certain moments ... :) ...

. beautiful poetry ... if it made me go on ... it's awesome ... :P ...