not mine

10/26/18

here comes a thought

out of nowhere or maybe everywhere

everything falls apart all at once

i need to shake this ghostly feeling inside my chest

i'm always trying, fighting to forget 

fearing the thought that i am damaged, a little bit wrong 

my body is no longer mine but a collection of pieces and parts 

taken by shadows of the past with faces i cannot recall

i wasn't theirs to f*****g take but here i am

only about half present with a longing stare

searching for what used to be mine 

Author's Note

although i have still been writing here and there, this is the first poem i've posted here in awhile, so... hope you like it.