My cup of life

a little thought about life...

My cup of life is similar to my cup of coffee; i never liked coffee with water, i always find it strong, I’d rather prefer milk coffee, I like the cappuccino creamy delicious & soft…
I often want to have my milk coffee at the office, in order to get it, I need to bring milk, put it in the fridge and being ready to not find it, a great work I felt am not ready for it;
Suddenly I got the brilliant idea to buy a sort of ready coffee, a strange mix I put it with warm water and wawww I get my coffee …my milk coffee.

I felt excited about the idea , tried it but NO it didn’t work, neither the smell nor the taste was like a coffee, I felt upset but never gave up, tried again , add some pure coffee , it was better but not “real” coffee, I added canella some rose water…. I tried more and more till what???
Till I forgot what is a” real” coffee looks like… this is…

I never lived my life, I always walked around behind and around, till I forgot the “real” meaning of life;
Why have I always missed my life, escaped my life, why have I always avoided my life, I always tried to be perfect but am not, I can’t and I don’ have to be, I’m not supposed to be… and then what is perfect??
I never took ways where I can feel fall fail fight and have more f…
I always took easy soft ways, I always add flavours to a “fake” life, I always spend time in decorating a “shadow” of life instead of making a “real” life;
Why ???
Because… because I always feel worried from the beginning; before I could start, I’m careful too much careful badly careful sadly careful, I know it is stupid… why shall I care about a life I never had?
Why shall I save a life I never had before? Why???

You remember when we were talking about “ tears and happiness”; I just told you I never experienced “crying from happiness”, you just told me “ may be because you never lived an extreme happiness”, I felt shocked “ Is it true?” but it is true it can be we live the whole life to say one day “ I never lived my life” the life I want …

 

I tried to live, I seemed to be alive, I lived for others, I saw others living, I admire others living But I never lived my life…

Author's Note

Can you pls correct my grammar mistakes and tell me what do you think about those thoughts...Thanks for reading!!!

Reviews

[-Scribe in Style-]

'I’d rather prefer milk coffee" - you do not need the rather. You cannot use the rather and prefer together.
I'd prefer milk coffee OR I would rather have milk coffee.

"at the office, in order to get it, I need"
After the first comma, you need a connecting word such as 'however'.
The second comma is then not needed.

Please note that I am not sure of the layout you are going for, so excuse me if these comments are not what you were looking for. Either way, good luck.

My life is like a mug of hot chocolate.

[Desert Dreamer]

Great life metaphors! Life can be so complicated, I have come to a conclusion that it is good to taste the coffee both ways, sweetened with milk and dark with bitterness, in that way we will know and enjoy the flavor of each.