I, The Deserter, Am Sorry

 

One more time

Let me just try

Maybe I can make it

Maybe I’ll finally do it right

 

The story of my life,

Kept quiet in the night;

Still untold in the light.

You’re better off not knowing me anyway

 

I don’t ask for understanding

Please don’t show your sympathy

I only ask for your patience

As well as your empathy

 

Be gentle when I make my mistakes

Screaming and yelling I can’t tolerate

Torn down so many times

I’ll say I’m sorry before I’d speak my mind

 

Far too critical to make friends;

Too explosive to keep the ones I had.

But feeling so disconnected,

Don't want to remain alone.

This is the battle of depression and rage

Let's throw in anxiety,

And the desire to strive to be happy;

Oh there's me! Now go on, flip the page.

 

Are we yet at the end

Is it time to go home

I can’t see the light in the tunnel

It’s dark and I’m all on my own

 

How long have I been lost

F**k, I don’t even know

How can I find myself

When I’ve been gone for so long

 

Is this the end

F**k it; I’m going home

Call me deserter

Sorry to leave you all on your own

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Very deep and strong thoughts in the poetry. I like the thoughts written. Leaving the reader with things to think about. Deserter in love can be easy. Hard to volunteer to stay when you are not confident of person or place. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry. You made me think tonight.
Coyote

[747]

Well thank you Coyote. I'm glad my poetry leaves your mind wandering.

[Coyote Poetry]

It did and you are welcome.

[AmjadPenboyoflight]

very much dissonance here
a good writing