she

this is a poem about two people with strange and difficult gender identities falling in love slowly

she was always beautiful,

she was always more a girl than me,

she was always captivating.

transition in and out of gender is scary

and terrifying 

and i wanted was to make sure she was safe.

i think i probably came across kind of

weird and maybe overbearing but

she was a person i wanted to be around

and a person i cared about

for some unplaceable reason.

i’m sure i was weird. i look back and cringe

but it’s comical, we were both too awkward.

me, too awkward to know,

her, too awkward to say.

i pretended to not be 

so interested in her

despite her beauty and 

my constant compliments and

i know now that she knew

but i was still in denial of

my gender

my sexuality

myself. 

but becoming friends with her 

floored me.

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[Poetry Road]

This writing has a beauty all it's own, and an innocence that we all experience with our first loves. Bravo for sharing.