is it a message or is it just me?

I don't know what it is.... is god telling me to wait or is he telling me I'm and idiot?

who knows?... God knows. All these girls I have meet i thought it may happen but......

but it was always the same, "i like u as a friend"..... why i ask myself? I don't know it just.....

just dosen't make any since anymore to me. I think I'll just have to wait untill she.... she shows up in my eyes.

Friends tell me I'm hung on the idea.... but it is not that..... I just like it better to be together than to just have a one night stand. It's hard but i will not give up. One day someone will say yes and then I can laugh in their faces and prove them wrong.

And while they can't find love i will already have mine.... to share my past, secrets and to be able to talk and get heard and do the same for her.

It's not just lust i want... i can talk so but deep down i don't care for it.... some love is what im looking for, searching for, and i will find it..... i will no matter what gets in my way.