Sorry?

It is saddening that all your sentimental confessions came down to just one word: Sorry.

Sorry, that supposedly means feeling distress especially through sympathy, or feeling regret or penitence, or just a polite expression of apology. But of course, what good can sorry do? Even if I willingly take The Sorry, what glad tiding should I expect it to bring?

I, too, am sorry that you feel guilty of breaking my heart. But, before expressing your utmost grief and pity, please place your bloody hand on the cracks of my heart. Cut yourself on the sharp broken pieces. Cut it deep. Let the blood splash out. Your blood, this time. Feel the excruciating pain. Feel it so much that you scream out loud in tantalizing agony and your screams run back to you like a ghost. Your ghost, precisely.    

And then, when finally the echo of your scream faints you only need to realize that you have cut your tough palm, and the weapon to cause such inflicting damage was the slaughtered pieces of my heart that you have kindly left with me. What do you feel now? I am generous enough to give you a bandage with antiseptic to cover and heal your wounds. But you, I must say, are conniving to offer a “sorry”.  

Sorry? No, I am sorry.   

Author's Note

Yet again, just some passing thoughts put down together.

Reviews

[APOORVA]

your thoughts reached me straight away !
what an amazing thinking and the way of writing.
i can learn from you

[Fahmida Mehreen]

I am truly honored by words. Feel free to share your thoughts. That is what binds us here. Keep reading! :)

[An owl on the moon]

In your words there arises such a world of what was, and what painful confessions drowned the beautiful Love in dark waters. And yes, sorry is such a frail word after the soul is found bleeding.

[Fahmida Mehreen]

It is. Only the one enduring it knows it.

[forgotten_ghosts]

Very powerful and touching! I can relate to things you wrote. The word sorry was used too much and therefore lost it's meaning. Really sad. Awesome piece of writing. Thrilled to read more you wrote!

[Fahmida Mehreen]

Thanks a lot for your appreciations and constructive feedback. Glad that you liked it. We have all suffered from something of similar kind. And if anyone haven't, then lucky fella indeed!

[Shabeeh Haider]

Oh Fahmida. This is so sad. The way you place your words is amazing. It really touches the heart of the reader.
And you are so right, sometimes "sorry" is just a habit. Those deeds that bring out the sorry are repeated again and again.

[Fahmida Mehreen]

Thank you so much for your gentle review. Your works are immensely powerful too!
And, as you said, a hollow sorry with no regret and sorrow attached is merely an empty shell that is of no use.

[Manu]

I loved your perspective regarding 'sorry'. Strangely, this mere word sorry has different implications in different sets of time. A heartfelt sorry too cannot soothe an aching heart. And sometimes people yearn for this mere word sorry their whole life.
I liked the ending line a lot.
Very well Written!!

[Fahmida Mehreen]

Thanks a lot for your hearty appreciation.
People take a lot for granted. That is when true emotions die.

Thank you for the review!

[sinNsincerity]

Wow, "please place your bloody hand on the cracks of my heart. Cut yourself on the sharp broken pieces. Cut it deep." This said it all to me.
I'm sorry as well. I can stop trying to imagine a would cause such pain.

[Fahmida Mehreen]

Some bruises never really heal. No matter how much we try, no matter how much others try, everything falls short before the pain. And at such point, a meaningless sorry will make no difference.

Thank you for the review. Don't be sorry. :)

[sinNsincerity]

I like to call them mental tattoos.

[Cyprian Van Dyke]

Strong yet meaningful words for such an overused to the point of it seeming meaningless word as sorry. You've limned vivid imagery and had fitting feelings expressed. Tyfs!

[Fahmida Mehreen]

Thank you for the review. As you said, a word that is much frequently used without actually implying its real meaning and acting upon it. Sad but true.

[Cyprian Van Dyke]

You're most welcome Fahmida :)

[Polly]

I can relate to this so much. I bet every human relates to this story in some way or other. This was very powerful and it truly left me wonderstruck. I love your word choices. Good job. :)

[Fahmida Mehreen]

Thanks a lot, Polly. I am sure of what you said. This is about a sentiment, about a perspective, that most people have come across in life at some point or the other. And, if someone did not, then I must say that the fellow is blessed with a golden fate. :)

Keep reading!

[Angel of the devil]

deep, dark, and powerful, i like it

[Fahmida Mehreen]

Thank you. :)

Keep reading.

[Angel of the devil]

welcome. :)

[Vatsal Rohilla (account..]

What a deep and dark piece of literature. It is really excellent. Today, I listened to very fine lines from some poet today- "I thought of burning my heart to ashes, but then I remembered you are there in my heart too."
The marvellous sort of heartfelt feeling that is aroused by your piece and by this couplet are so equal to each other in intensity, yet so different in some ways. Great work. Keep writing.

[Fahmida Mehreen]

Thank you so much for your appreciating review. Truth be told, when I was putting all the words down I felt a pang in my heart too. I can understand what you are talking about.