Today. It was not a Fairytale.A Story by Fahmida MehreenLove did not die. When I first realized that I have an unbendable feeling for you breeding inside me, I kept on digging it, to know that it actually exists and that I am not getting bluffed by my own racing heartbeats. I did not get carried away by your charisma. I fell for you because I could see a reflection of my life in your eyes, shining. There was and is only one “you.” Loving you was never easy. I fought myself, convinced myself, that my love for you will never diminish. I will always love you. With that, I can never deny your love for me too. You loved me more than I ever thought you would. You wanted me more than anyone ever did. You could never afford to let go of me. But, somewhere down the line came a point when I no longer could afford to hold on to you. I could not feel the happy heartbeats any more. I only heard thumping of hollow muscles. I no longer saw my life glistening in your eyes. I could no longer look over the smallest flaws of yours that made my heart ache. Above all, I could not feel the joy of being with you; appreciate any of your attempts to make things look perfect; acknowledge your desire to stay together. I had nothing more to offer you, not even my existence in your life. Love did not die. But, I lost it somewhere in the motion of sending it to you. I let go of you. Maybe there will not be a single day when I will be happy without you. Maybe the accident called “love” will never happen to me again. But, I had to pull the chain because the unhappiness of mine would eventually destroy you. In love. Maybe I will regret calling it off. But, if I start to count regrets I will run out of time and fade away with it. Regret: I allowed you in my life and let you love me. I wish I did not. I wish you did not love me. Now, I will live without you. Please, you do too. © 2016 Fahmida MehreenFeatured Review
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