Honesty

If i could be honest with you
If i could open up and let you see me
I would lay down my masks
My smile would fade and my armor would fall
If i could only give up my charade
I'm afraid of anyone seeing who i am at the core
Any laughter and brightness would fade
The light would leave my eyes
My good faith is gone when you reach down this far
And all you can see is a maze of scars
There's blood on the walls here
And so many things buried beneath the floors
You are not the first to try and tread through this patchwork heart
Its a minefield so step carefully
The rooms hide my fears and insecurities
My pride and selfishness lie howling in their cages
Some people will say oh, you're good at heart
But i have myself wrapped in layers of light
Hoping nobody will see what i keep inside
Down to my core i am ugly
That is why I'm scared of honesty
Because what will happen if you see every dark corner of me?

Author's Note

wrote this late one night a few weeks ago and then forgot about it.
originally titled "Reflection vs. Perception" but writerscafe didn't like that title

Reviews

[LapseOfMind]

Nicely written and, as far as I can tell, brutally honest. Self image is such a huge part of our lives and what we trap inside of ourselves often dictates how we see ourselves. Good job, I enjoyed this

[Fading-to-Gray]

Thank you very much :)