Irrational Thoughts

 

Within the pages of my mind,

I read all the words that you said.

I constantly read every line,

I can't get you out of my head.

 

My entire being longs for you,

I'm in a constant anxious state,

I don't know what to do,

I am so afraid I'm too late.

 

I came to my senses long ago,

I tried to tell you then,

I don't blame you, though,

I'm the one who went 'round the bend.

 

How do I get you to understand,

I was completely out of my mind.

I wore the disabled brand,

with a bright neon sign.

 

It brought the lowest of the low to my door,

to do with me what they would,

then they would do even more,

simply because they could.

 

But I didn't understand that then,

I was thinking irrational thoughts,

like being around religious men,

my penance could be bought.

 

10/22/07 

 

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Last lines gave strength and purpose to this poem.
"But I didn't understand that then,
I was thinking irrational thoughts,
like being around religious men,
my penance could be bought."
I learn like most people. Forgiveness is best done from a distance. Thank you for the excellent poem.
Coyote

[SuicidePact.]

love the first stanza !! it was fabulous

[Lorraine Pearson]

Vulnerable write here Barbara! I can totally connect with this! I even have someone I'd love to pass this on to, as it expresses so much of what I feel inside...so many of us have walked this walk one way or another...you have scribed it so well! BRAVO!
~Lorraiyne

[Amanda]

irrational thoughts can sometimes get the best of us...they can cripples us to where no matter what is being said to us, we will not listen. to lose some one just because we would not listen is regettable. we can only hope that they will come back.

nicely done.

Always,

Amanda

[forfila]

Wow, I love to read about love and this was a beautifully written tale :) nice

Love
Me

[Sandra Rains DeBusk]

This is so very deep Barbara...emotional pain, heart breaking...regret.
This poem says so much about you and about life.
I will save this one.