How It Really Feels

I have to present a positive outlook, when inside I am devastated, lost...

There may be sunshine in the days,
but ours have a pall
of shades of gray.
Questions fill my mind-
How long? What quality?
Months, weeks, days?
Will there be much pain?
In the answers,
do we gain?

How do you live,
while dying?
How do you die,
while living?
Do we pretend?
Do we keep lying?
Denying?
Or talk of dying?

As your body
bloats in new places
and withers in others,
do we act blind?
Refuse the sign?
Ask you to dine?
Talk of the weather?
It's getting wetter.
Are you feeling better?
Feel like a go getter?

When you feel like hell,
within your shell
and from your toes
to your crown,
you have to lie down,
I cannot believe
how this has come to pass.
Will it help,
if I go to mass?
And why, oh, why,
does it have to be so fast?

Leaving my mind
in a whirl,
I love you, girl,
I don't want you to be ill,
taking more and more pills-
having to accept losing you,
my sister, my twin, my friend;
since girls in the womb
and sharing a room.
Don't you know,
when you go-
you won't be alone
in that tomb?

Reviews

[Mary]

Powerful and profound writing. and true and honest, and so very well penned.

[Whiskurz]

Profoundly penned my friend.....Whisk

[Dr. Wood ?]

something that will face us all....I feel for you in your pain You convey your feelings with great skill

[Coyote Poetry]

"I scream inside,
I don't want you to be ill,
taking more and more pills,
having to accept losing you-"
Something are lifetime struggle. Take years to understand. The poem had great thoughts and struggle. I like the complete poem. The ending made the poem complete. Thank you for sharing the excellent poem.
Coyote

[Craig2591]

Very touching! I like all the questions. It shows the uncertainty we all feel when dealing with this kind of a situation.

This poem really conveys your pain.

[Ahmad Cox]

Wow, so profound and true as well. Thanks for sharing.