Anti-Hero

noun; a protagonist who lacks the attributes that make a heroic figure, as nobility of mind and spirit, a life or attitude marked by action or purpose, and the like

Reminiscing all the past mistakes I made,

They’re coming through clear as day. 

Rattling their bones in the tomb,

I built for them to stay away,

For shame, for shame,

I dare say,

Crying my life away, 

While mulling over the last remaining rosy rays,

That beg me to stay. 

For what could take this pain away? 

Surely not you,

Not if you stayed,

Discussing the open wound,

While consuming it too.

You were always going to leave me,

In a true blue state, 

Of missing you,

Through and through. 

And for that I will,

Reminisce the past mistakes I made,

That are coming through clear as day,

Placating me with false frozen rays,

That melt in my stay,

For shame, for shame,

I dare say,

Numbing my life away,

While the haze blocks out your indifferent play,

While you sharpen my glaze in the shade. 

And out of all the mistakes I made,

Time after time,

I never saw the signs,

Thrones piercing my crown,

Blooding dripping down,

Making me drown.

And the last thing I think is to,

Reminisce the past mistakes I made,

That are coming through as clear as day,

Blinding me amongst the blades and rays,

For shame, for shame,

I dare say,

Drinking my life away,

Forever spiralling down this drain,

Never truly seen for this pain. 

Author's Note

"I should not be left to my own devices / They come with prices and vices / I end up in crisis (tale as old as time)/ I wake up screaming from dreaming / One day I'll watch as you're leaving / 'Cause you got tired of my scheming" - Taylor Swift, Anti-Hero

Reviews

[willweb]

Another deep and amazing poem that is filled to the brim with feelings and emotions. Not sure if this is you or your imagination, if you , keep your chin up, life gets better as it goes along. If your imagination...bravo. Very well done.

[K.P.H.M]

Thank you Will! I would say that it was definitely half imagination and half sometimes how my anxiety makes me feel. I'm glad you enjoyed it!