the night i died

i remember the night i died. oh god, you killed me, ripped me apart and hid the pieces. everything hurt and i died slowly, and i still feel it.

it's funny because it's what i wanted to avoid at all costs, from the beginning of it all. i didn't tell you how much i feared death, but i told you

"i'm needy"

"i'm sensitive"

"i'm broken"

and i was begging you to be gentle with me but you killed me, oh my god

you killed me and i love you to death