Happy August

Today I saw you in your immortal flesh
Depicted as in my memory, without any blurred lines
Contours of the past pixelated by sight

Today you were the same as ever
Eyes consuming what seeks not recognition
Ignoring the pleas etched across the floorboards
Mutters of incoherency tangled in indifference

Today I had the exact downturned gaze as you
An identical suppressed spoken statement
The girl with transparent skin
Eyes hollow, sunken, tearless
Hiding the anguish that she hoards

Today we were children at heart
Growing up too fast for our changeless bodies
So we live in our youth and sacrifice our future
Suffocate ourselves one breath at a time
Chuckle at hollow fragments of our love
Weep at the way we couldn't stay entwined

Today you let my neck disentangle from your arms
And left empty caverns between my fingers
Your beautiful passivity now an evil
Once promoting peace, now igniting self destruction
Silence slicing through an empty chest
Rhythmic, tantalizing words behind bitten lips
And swallowed in selfishness

Today my heart fled from my hands
And sought shelter in your pocket
Where it was safe from all demons but one
But you severed its chambers and drained its blood
So I catch my smile on alcohol bottles
And wait for the laments to fade from my vision
We strangle the stars that direct our fate
And feed the silence and our masochistic martyrdom