Seconds

That second chance that everybody talks about came for me late last year.

A lot of people I didn't know had it all unveiled in their own little space.

And at the same time that nobody saw the tears,

No one will ever see the pain that was on her face.

She was only mine for a blink of time.

It was way back when we were too young.

But the hook has been drawn far too deep,

With every song to me she sung.

Through the lie I've led for many years,

I was always afraid she was the one.

And when fate presented her back into my lie,

I couldn't hold back what had already begun.

It takes my strength every day,

To hold back and bite down on what my heart flows.

Not ever going to be "good enough" for her,

Was the hurtful sisters' prose.

But this was a truth I already knew,

Even she had her doubt.

My memories, so very sweet.

To replace what I have to do without.

I got the glimpse of what I feel like love should feel like.

It is now unfair to anyone who get's close.

So I feign my happiness to keep pretending.

And continue loving her ghost.

so miss you...