My Mother in heaven

A poem that I wrote almost 7 years ago but one of my favourites as it really captured me in the midst of realizing my grief of my mother's death.

Four years on, my sixteenth birthday, 
My life has changed in every way, 
"Everything happens for the best", 
A load of rubbish, lifes a test, 
An overturn of routine and fun, 
You play after the work is done, 
My work is never complete, 
And our lives are far from sweet, 
I keep thinking if mum was here, 
I could get through this, she would care, 
But gone she is, gone and dead, 
This statement whirls through my head, 
Every night I keep on trying, 
To close my eyes and stop the crying, 
Because the night after I said goodbye, 
I lay to sleep and started to cry. 

Reviews

[Sue Hart]

What a touching, heart breaking poem. Loosing your mother is always hard when you've been close. The mother here is to be praised when the daughter thinks of her with such warm thoughts of trusting Mom would make it better. I understand what that means and as a mother, she would have known it too.

[Traci]

First and foremost I am very sorry for your loss. I found this to be a very soulful piece, full of raw emotion and love for your mother. I lost mine 3 years ago so this piece resonates deeply within my heart and soul. Many say time heals all, however, the pain never fully goes away, we just find ways to go on, letting our loved one's precious memories comfort us.

A very beautiful write, Tumara. I look forward to reading more of your work.

[Samuel Dickens]

Such sadness. In my experience, it never totally goes away, but will dull slightly with time. You express your raw feelings very well.

[-Scribe in Style-]

This is awesome! Well written. The emotion pours out. Each day is a test, one that we have to get through, it's up to us to decide which part we can and want to make best! Good luck.. Sorry for your loss.
Hope there is someone around to pull through with you..

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it s really moving. all words turned to feels . that s amazing. it s very calm and nice. thank you i can read this

[Anand Sehgal]

Myself too have changed a lot since the departure of my favorite aunt's soul !

I could connect with your write . I've become emotional !
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[magenta24uk]

Emotional stuff. Thank you for sharing. x

[Tumara Hall]

Thank you for stopping by xxx

[Cryingkate]

Really ? am I really that tired. earlier I thought I was commenting to Chris who I thought wrote this.....
Well..... I'm glad I made the mistake some brainless way cause I got to meet you Tumara

[Tumara Hall]

It's almost like destiny wanted us to meet :) and I am so glad we did because my heart was full of warmth all day because of your kind comments :)

[Cryingkate]

Awe I saw you come on Sweet Angel Tumara ...I think so too,...
I need to let my caboose rest from sitting . Will you be on for awhile? Could I take a break and get back to you?

[Cryingkate]

Your Love is pouring out and gonna make me cry. I need to rest up first LOL

[Tumara Hall]

Lol!!! Daughter is full of energy so I might be popping off for a bit but hopefully I will be able to get back on after tea, You rest up dollface!!!

[Cryingkate]

I felt guilty leaving cause I know you have that precious young summer to tend but I'll get some tea too and be watching for you.When I was in the kitchen I was thinking about putting tea on to have with you and should of.

[Cryingkate]

Well for Pete's sake Chris, look what we were both writing at the same time.
Check out my latest..

LOL.. now if the odds of that don't make ya smile, Then come over here and get a big Hug :-)
Now the thoughts of that can scare you or cure you.:-)

By the way You did a great job on your expression !
but I'll send ya a Mother's Hug anyway when ya ain't looking.

[Chris]

We don't plan how and when our hurt leaks out, nor even the manner. We just survive it as best we can.

Tributes are fragile things - seldom good enough within our own eyes. Sometimes you never realize how much it hurts - until it does.

[Tumara Hall]

Wow that is a beautiful way to look at it. Grief is hard on so many levels but it helps to realize the potential of the joyful times.

[Chris]

somehow we ascribe more "joy" to "good"times - AFTER a hurt-filled event takes place, sort of a way to make up for the ones that weren't as nice that we still gloss over in our darknesses.