If I let it happen, I deserved it

I'm waiting for time to pass

in a way I won't notice it's gone

nothing is how it was

coming in waves of change

        like tsunamis

I'm overwhelmed by the pain

that you left for me to deal with

I tried to wash out every piece of you

-from my hair

-from my skin

-from my clothes

I even vacumed the damn floor

which you know I never do

and now these gaping wounds

are all thats left of you

across a valley of silence

you are there, moving on without me

I'm standing beside the shore

of a lake filled with my own tears

and it just keeps growing

all I ever wanted was honesty

and just a few unbroken promises

but life isn't like that

lies are so beautiful

when your heart is shattered

irreparable

no amount of men will ever

fill the hole you left

i keep trying - for nothing

I'm just as broken now

as i was when you first walked out

i keep wishing you'll turn around

call me, come home

but the truth is you won't

you will never come back to me

how do i go on

when my rock left me stranded

my protector attacked me

my strength weakened me

a million rolls of tape are not enough

to fix me again

Reviews

[Naomi Montana Walsh]

Generally I am jaded by the jaded as I have been one of them .. but I do not regret my own broken hearted poetry nor begrudge anyone their day of suffering for lost love..I love to read them as time has past and I have lied to myself about love..because I have fallen in it again , after I confessed to be loyal to the legacy of one lost.. I had to accept the idea of getting hurt again many times..
I totally relate to your poem and it's pathos , it is stunning as written .

[JustWantLove]

True and blue; I understand how the world crumbles all around when the love we've shared our lives with is no longer part of our cosmic energy; the absence of is the deterioration of our foundation, however, love has a way of Uplifting the soul in mysterious ways just like rain does on hot days! Thank you for being sincere and willing to share this with us! Bravo!

[bob, small b. aka invs]

i think this expresses something that almost all of us have been through at one time or another, but this expresses it so well that no one can NOT understand what you're feeling here. well done.

[Pax Analog]

It's difficult to discuss the deeper level on which we paradoxically create our own debacles.

So as not to go new age "woo-woo" with it, I'm reminded of the classic Stones song, "Shattered," wherein the tone is an undefeatable, bemused defiance 'midst one's own emotional wreckage, the almost inevitable aftermath of undying romantic yearnings (considering we all die, and just hope we manage to set up a "good" death).

It takes guts, heart, and smarts to both embrace storms and be the eye of said storms. Fight fire with fire, I say. A certain stable fierceness not only makes for hotter whole connections, however long they last, it generates greater self-respect for the in-betweens.

"Look at me -- I'm Shattered."

Eventually, you smile, 'cause no matter how much you dig somebody, you ain't a mere Humpty Dumpty in their callow callous heartbreakin' wake. Nobody's cool enough to be a victim of.

Good documentation of this age-old heart-smashing process peculiarly called love-desire, though. ;-)

[Orlando Murcia]

Wow this was deep
I have felt like this a lot
of times, I hate it when things
don't work out our ways sometimes
but sometimes it's because we get more
than what we had before.

It's all timing really, but we must not care
for time, because it will distract us and we
should just let time come to us

If that makes any sense

Other than that I loved your poem
it was awesome

Orlando M