RECLAIMING MY SEXUALITY

life after sexual abuse is hard. the amount of shame and guilt eats you up.

Virgin Mary

That's what they call me

So pure, so innocent

Has never let a man touch her

And they are right

To an extent

The idea of sex is sacred to me

Only to give to the person I am destined to be with

But that was taken from me

He took the most holy part of me

He turned me into

Filth

Dirt

Nothingness

Heavenly Father please forgive me

I hadn't known what it meant then

But I do now

I am no sinner

I am no saint either

But you have to believe me when I say

It wasn't my fault

I cannot change my skin

I cannot build myself a cocoon

Tear myself open and be full again

I am but a girl

I am but a person

Do not mistake me for the Mother of Jesus

Because I am not worthy of such a title

Even if I wish I was

Reviews

[Pete]

such honesty of a bared soul. congrats. there is power in your words. what's done is done but we live on. long live acceptance and truth that doesn't have to hide ... :)

[Serendipity Planet]

I could feel the pain in your very powerful poem , I adore you for the brave and courage you have to put those thoughts down , I am sure it will help many other girls that were abused and still afraid to say it out , maybe they feel guilty for some reason although it was not their fault

[Meghan Renee]

Thank you so much!

The whole point about sharing my poetry and speaking out about my trauma is to reach others who have gone through similar ordeals. No one deserves to live with it. I can only hope that this gives others the courage and bravery to come forth themselves!