Beneath A Pale Moonlight

This is a short collection of poetry.

BENEATH A PALE MOONLIGHT:

 

Moonlight over broken hearts tonight
fragile souls dancing slowly along my walls
maybe you are as lost as I am?
Maybe you are separated by the one thing you need most
 My comforting words beckoning through the shadowed wall
 Covered by your ignorant smile and the sad eyes you hide from me

Sometimes life gives so much pain
Sometimes life moves on even though things stay the same
You are standing in the spot I recognize from yesterday
Hair tossed carelessly
Whatever happened to us walking gracefully?
Was it tossed aside by the desire for the dark? 
Places we found to hide?

How can something be broken so easily!
Was it because something fell that cannot be mended
Or we do not know how to find the pieces
Beneath this dim moonlight

 

 

 

Butterfly
you lived under a colorless sky
on broken wings
you could not fly
Fly Butterfly
give all you have with grace and try
No nights can bring you down
no grey skies can take away the flight
So fly butterfly
Fly away from the broken pieces of the sky
Light up the dawn with your will
you must too, too survive
fly from the corners of your soul
fly butterfly out into the colored nights
leave all those colorless days behind
fly butterfly
to mend those broken wings

 

 

The Ledge:

 

It stood there up against time
decayed from water that had fallen from
every grey sky
it leaned over thousands of miles of nowhere
into the depth of extinction

It had been built many
and it had been cracked by weight
of unusual manners
that took place

I came to seek its solace
and its confidence
the world is just a shadow
my life is just a pebble
in the sand

I stood on top of it with my arms out
as if I could maybe one day reach the sky
but beneath the gravel was my intention
I stood there with my life on the tip of my finger
as if I couldn't linger any longer

What if I just let go?
What if nobody would ever know?
What if I could just fall into eternal darkness
for wasted days gone by

the clock chimed
and the ledge didn't give out
my answer was satisfied

 

My Grandmother:

 

She had the loudest laugh
the most simple smile
and the colors of many auburn
as she had always dyed it
She had the warmth of all hugs
The Tears to keep me sane
The Love
I would never alter

Lately Her hair has been white as snow
her reflection in the mirror is pale
for she is a ghost of the night
who wonders the halls feeling lost
crying for the ones who went before her

All I can do is reach out my unfamiliar hand
towards her
and hope to guide her to serenity
like all the times she guided me
For darkness has now been bestowed upon her
Time has come to take her away

I now carry her laugh as loud as can be
I have her smile inside of me
I still feel her hugs
And the tears that I grieve to keep me sane
The love for her
That she never altered

 

My Grandfather:

 

He had the kindest smile

That never did fade

Even when the darkness came

It never took his grace away

He had the greenest eyes you ever did see

Painted on a lovely face

It was hard not to love him

Because when he loved you, he did it best

He had the wrinkles of much hardened times

When there were days he thought he couldn’t survive

He got through the wind and faced the calm

He was the greatest man that ever was

He died one dreary day

Lord took his suffering away

I know he still lives on inside

Because I see him in you

You have his smile when there is pain

You have the eyes and the lovely face

The genuine, pure truth

I see my late Grandfather all the time

All I have to do is look at you

 

 

 

 

 

 

Emerging From Darkness:

 

I see no silhouettes in these dark corridors

No light on my face

I only hear the clock ticking away the hours and minutes of each time wasted

Sitting here in an empty space waiting for the cobwebs to leave from my brain

I wonder when I will be able to see even my hand in front of my eyes

I wonder when I will be mesmerized by the beauty of a simple glow

Let the inner sanity break away to make me sane once again

Nobody understands when your mind is blind clouding your vision

Walking around in Zombie state form

I wonder when I will finally see

that with each emotion, something wonderful is taking over me

If I could cry then let me cry a thousand tears to fall upon my cheeks

let the water soak and dampen my soul to let me know

Yes! I still am alive!

I feel you reaching out even though I'm ten thousand miles away

In the middle of the river

Loneliness is sinking this boat

And I'm drowning in your arms

Only to one day awake

Emerging from darkness

 

 

 

GOODBYE DEAR FRIEND:

 

I had a dream

That you came back from drifting away

You said you were quite the explorer uncovering new territories in the waters

Yet you needed to be reminded that I was never alone while you were out dreaming

Of something I could never be

In the dream you had the look I used to remember long ago

Before harsh words were spoken before it took a toll

Bruising our egos, breaking our hearts

In the dream you reminded me why I wish things could go back to the start

Yet when I awoke I realized how far away you are

When the time came, you rushed our goodbye

Guilty was I with all the shame

To spill it across such a priceless face

Now that you are truly gone

No more tears to spill

No more enchanted new beginnings or memories

So I'll take the scenery of you drifting to ease the pain

In a boat without a name

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

FLAWED:

 

I used to travel

With internal damage jig-jagged on my sleeve

I used to think the whole world could see them

In hindsight those defects were only for my eyes

However I did see them

They barricaded the roads I would walk

Taunting me, yet beckoning me at the same time

To take a closer look at the insecure madness that made up

Consistently of what I thought was real but was of pure vivid heckling from my own imagination

Then one day I stopped traveling down a desolated road

Where darkness lurked in every corner

And sadness and despair only followed once beckoned or summoned by my fragile eyes

I realized what the sense of keeping up this charade was

Of tattered realizations of what was on my sleeve

So I shredded what I wore and continued on my way

Naked and vulnerable

I realized

I was no longer the scared child who couldn't look herself in the face

I had become the grown Woman who flourished

Only because she choose to see the beauty in all flaws

 

 

I leave you behind:

 

You are the ghost that haunts my dreams

I wake up lost and wondering amidst what could have been

If only I had not sent out such harsh words

You can't take away what you say you are the villain inside

Reach out to me, like I once tried to reach out to you

My mouth is gaped open as if I cannot speak

I'm sorry for our loss

It takes such courage

To rewrite my timeline

When your face is faded out between the lines

You’re once smile and laughter still reconciles me

Although we are now not meant to be

Forgotten enemies

So I know what the next step is to do

It's the battle of losing you

What I can't bring back is already gone

Such a hard recognition

I feel so all alone

All I can do is wish the brightest stars in your eyes

All I can do is hope the skies are not filled with any drop of pain

Because this bitterness is slowely killing me

So I move on to today

I hope if you haunt you decide not to stay

Your presence is not what I need

Maybe it's the fact that I am the one who needs

To leave you behind

 

WHATEVER IT TAKES:

I will admit

Life hasn't been easy

There have been roads collapsed, paths I can't seem to cross

Losses, devastated easily

Food succumbs to all emotions it makes it more bearable

To endure the pain, the high tides, to walk in waste fields of old abandon memories

Yet as they grow the tears in my eyes

I find that I grow more and more outwards as well

So I put down the fork

I am not of the starved

I put away the cookies

I am not of the deprived

Nobody ever gave me false expectations

All they did was try to make hope my salvation

If health is the price I have to pay

I need some solution

I don't need the leftovers to save for rainy days

I just need to cry myself a good tear or two

Let it fall from the darkest corners until it soothes my soul

I have the drive

I have the yearning

The compassion for ME

I finally found the love I lost inside

I found it can be restored

I can lose the excess body mass

I can be revived from the abyss of death alive

Whatever it takes

 

 

 

 

 

 WHENEVER I MISS YOU

 

The petals to my rose have fallen out

Leaving no color, washed out, and dry

I stare at the wasted green stem

 Before this tragic occurrence

Time went?

 

I think of such solitude and no gratitude upon the very tear

That is banished from my eye and lifted onto my cheek

To spill down into my mouth like a river drowning a small child

So fast, so innocent, consumed and so young

 

It is only in my darkest hours

That these proclaims of yearning transpire

Whenever I miss you

 

 GOODBYE

It is time for me to leave the scene

No more curtains calling my name

No more place cards set arranged

No more space in your domain

No more lies to mask this charade

Truth be told we were never meant to stay

One of us had to go

So let it be me

No more laughter and the softest whispers of a secret

On a cold winters night to keep us warm and safe

My friend all I see now are shadows on your face

Whatever happens to yesterday?

Remember it faded

All we have is this moment

Where I don’t belong

So I must be moving on

Uttering the word that scrapes the bottom of my heart

Leaving it in splinters, wounded, torn apart

Goodbye

 

Author's Note

I have plenty more in my mind and more stored somewhere. This is basically a rough draft of what I want in a book of poetry.

Reviews

[Harmonica winds]

Whoa! This is really amazing! Strong and powerful, but found it nicely written overall.

[Michelle Rose]

Thank you so much for your kind words and pointers. :-)

[Owlgirl]

Wow! That was amazing! You may want to play around with the formatting and puntuation parts in order to have it read more the way you had intended it to be read, other than that authors choice bit, that was exceptional!