Sins

This guy...ehh...

 

“We’ll always be together, my love…”

She whispered so softly to me

She’s all that I’ve ever needed here

And she’s only mine, finally

 

Not a doubt or regret, no sign of remorse

As I take up her hand in my own

And now, I can’t help but to smile so softly

Knowing I won’t again be alone

 

In the dark, though I knew she was heated,

I could not see her cheek’s fiery glow

As she told me then, “Love, you’re the one for me,”

I just answered, “I already know.”

 

I could only feel pride as we lied there,

As I knew that tonight she’d be mine

And although the room’s darkness was frightful

In her eyes, I could see a small shine

 

As she shifted her weight, I was sensing

That it wasn’t quite simple as this

So I waited for her to just tell me

And she started with simply a kiss

 

But she soon sat up straight, and I wondered

Why she seemed to avoid the next part

Of her explanation to her actions

But, then, clutching herself, she did start

 

“Oh, my love, I wish not to now say this,

But it’s lingered now on me so long,

And I’ll speak now these words which I’m fearing,

And when I do, I’ll try to stay strong…

 

“I’ve determined that we’ll be together

From now on, ‘til my very last breath,

But God has determined a plan for my body,

I’ll stay pure until after my death.”

 

As I sat there, I tried to determine

Just the meaning of those words she’d said

And if I’d heard her right, she had meant that

She’d simply be better off dead

 

As I felt all the pain rise inside me,

I knew not of what I could then do

Groping blindly for something, I finally found

A blunt object, which I quickly threw

 

I heard her cry out for a second

Then I heard as she then hit the floor

And the pain in me turned into fear then

As I quickly then dashed to the door

 

But, then, pausing, I turned to my loved one

And I turned on the room’s only light

I knelt down to her body and watched as her blood

Was then dripping…

 

…A wonderful sight.

 

I picked up again what I had thrown;

Not as blunt as I thought, but who cared?
It had worked well before when I’d thrown it,

As I raised it, I wasn’t so scared

 

And I wasn’t so when I had jammed it into

Her beautiful, porcelain skin

As the blood hit my face, I could no longer help

As my wide-eyed face then formed a grin

 

Again and again I just stabbed her

And again and again I just moaned

My pleasure was all I could feel then

‘Til the object hit her solid bone

 

It was then that I realized I’d done it

It was then that I screamed out fear

It was then that I’d realized I’d killed my one love

It was then that I felt as my tears

Started welling up inside my eyelids

But I couldn’t then wipe them away

‘Cause the blood of my angel was staining my hands

In this place, I could no longer stay

 

So I clutched to the object I held there

And I realized just then where I stand

‘Cause my only real reason for living

Was destroyed by my very own hands

 

As my grip grew much tighter I prayed then

For her God to take pity on me

For I knew not if this object’s shimmering edge

Was enough to then set my soul free

 

God, I hoped and I prayed that it would be

There was no real way, other than trying

To know if it’s already blood-staining edge

Would be enough to be life defying

 

But it was, as my body soon crumpled

And my heartbeat just ceased at that time

But my actions had forced me down under

And no pearly, white stairs would I climb