Honesty in Thoughts

i make jokes
and though i'm laughing
there's an honesty
you're not grasping
i tried to tell myself
that we're just friends
but you know the name of the game
and i lose again
i'm love drunk
and accident prone
so i swig another double
and attempt to walk home
i stumble
and pick myself up
dust off the hurt
and push my luck
i should stay away from you
if i know whats good at all
but my heart is clumsy
and getting ready to fall
yet you're completely oblivious
to everything you do
including but not
completely limited to
making me laugh
even when your jokes are lame
or blushing like a school girl
just because you said my name
burning inside
every time you touch my skin
the look in your eyes
giving me hope that i might win
ripping my heart from my chest
with just a kiss on the cheek
and making me realize
i'm so f*****g weak
for falling for the girl
that will never be mine
making jokes out of my affection
cause really though … i'm fine
yeah sure, we're buddies
or BFFs
or something else dumb, disposable
and insignificant i guess
or whatever you say
cause i'll be whatever you wish
paste on smiles and pretend
i'm not dying like this
i'll just put my heart in a box
and hide it away
till it no longer beats out your name
every single day
cause i enjoy the time i spend with you
the joking and the talks
so i'll continue with the laughter
and keep the honesty in thoughts

Reviews

[Abigail Claire]

"so i'll continue with the laughter
and keep the honesty in thoughts"

wowowowow. this poem made my heart ache.

[SilentDreamer]

I honestly enjoyed reading this. It's so truthful and flows well. Great job!