A Song and a Dream

I take a sip at night just to keep my temp right

Walking through the darkness in spite of fright

I tell the Lord to keep my faith tight

But I'm smashing that almost every other night

Tunes in my ears just to keep me sane

Counting numbers throughout the day like a chip in my brain

I take that ride just to clear my mind

But she opens up and I find much more hidden inside

To lose myself only for a moment

I say never again but I'll always want it

Hallucinating, thoughts penetrating

Paranoia, but I ain't crazy

Just give me smoke and let me toke

Then suddenly..

All those thoughts are wrote 

Floating out the window..

Into the night

As the by passers read them and stare at me

But your concerns..

Don't share with me

Just let me be and pray for me

Cause in the night I'm just too damn weak.

I do what I do with no thought of what others think of me

But I'm doing enough as long as I'm pleasing my mother

Lord knows I love her.

Choosing to be happy

Can you tell me what that is

I think I'll be wondering for as long as I live

But I'm living forever

So forever I'll get it

Then suddenly..

I fall asleep

The day starts over

And all it was..

was a song and a dream..