Love and I

The inevitable, twisted affair with love and I.

People search the world for it

But I got it right here

Never been into my emotions

But I feel them so clear.

Always been too proud

So I've never been too loud to show it

So when you're looking for em

I act like I don't know them.

I've always lusted for it

But when I get it, I don't always want it

And once they leave

I wish I would have flaunted it.

People always want what's mine

So don't knock me for being stingy

I can never get enough love

So don't shun me for being greedy.

The most twisted mind

But my intentions are always good

I apologize for a thousand times

But I still do it.

The paranoia

I got it for ya

Hard to trust a soul

Cause people are so bold.

But in the back of mind

At the bottom of my heart

I know of true love

I just don't know where to start.

But when I attempt

I always feel as if it's not enough

Fighting with love until love gives up.

Then I am back at square one, alone with my thoughts

Thinking how in the hell did I do it again?

How did I manage to mess up?

I always jump in too fast because of my lustful eyes

Ending up with a broken heart, empty as the open sky

Or I push those away with my selfless ways

Letting the enemy take my mind, and with it, run away.

Sometimes I don't know where I'll end up

But most people wish they had my luck

Guess I better cheer up

Don't wanna f**k up.

Just wanna grow up.

Trying to get my love up.