I, III

[letter from the future, to my present self]

I'm sorry that it took you 

three years too long

to find out that you 

deserve to live.

I'm sorry that you had to realize

that pushing people away won't 

keep them close.

I'm sorry that you had to find out

that saving yourself

isn't easy enough.

I'm sorry that the person who saved you

is the person who

you almost killed with your 

confidence in her.

I'm sorry

that she can't 

look at you

anymore.

I'm sorry that you love her.

I'm sorry that she 

will never

love you back.

But most of all

I'm so sorry 

that you haven't realized this yet.