a mindful tryst (conversations within)

a mindful tryst (conversations within)

 

 

baseless allegations

 

of love

 

the narcissist 

thought of me

through unfounded tears

 

blades of rain burning

skewing the view,

against the reflection

 

I tried to love 

you

until 

I remembered myself

 

myself

 

and then wrapped my arms tightly

 

around the real love of my love

self-hugs

 

feel real good

 

Don't try this at home

if you happen to be looking into a mirror.

 

 

erin-cilberto

11/13/2020

Reviews

[Light and ashes]

The ending of this made my soul smile really big. :)
It is hard to imagine a narcissist crying. Do they?

[jacob erin-cilberto]

only tears when they are ignored, i'm afraid.
thank you, Light.
j.

[Light and ashes]

I think you are right.

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

Oh yes! This wouldn't work at home, looking in the mirror. So ugly the reality, how would they embrace themselves? I love the way you portrayed a Narcissistic love! Spot on. The imagery for rain is superb and I loved it!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your very kind words, Ditzy,
j.

[Dhara_Ditzy Kat]

You're welcome dear Jacob!

[Lorry]

I don't know why that last line makes so much sense to me, but I shall heed your warning Jacob.
What we feel isn't always what we say, just as some thoughts should remain thoughts for a reason.
That inner ego can sure talk a good game though, or as we say in Scotland "you're writing checks your a*s can't cash." 😀
I just wish I said less than I think and disagreed with that smooth talker of a mind more 😁

[jacob erin-cilberto]

yes, the mind is a smooth talker and usually convinces us of what we need not know is true...better off being in the dark
thank you, Lorry,
j.

[.]

We paint ourselves into the colour of our love(that special one)... Then we forget our true self and lose ourselves into the thought of our love. But when we realize that we love only to fulfil and mend our own heart then we try to console ourselves with a self hug. We and only we can heal our hurt and console our mind with self love

[jacob erin-cilberto]

such insightful words, Dreamer...thank you so much for this review.
j.

[KWP]

I like this ... a narcissist ... do they have th capacuty to give back when concentration remaind needhole sharp on themselves ... showering you with admiration because they know they can fool some and get excatly what they want ...

thank goodness this narrator took a step back to galnce at the scene unfolding, thank goodness they had the strength to step well away :)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your insightful words, KWP,
j.

[Chris Shaw]

Dear Jacob, I can relate to this poem. Sometimes you are so tied up in caring and looking out for others, you forget about yourself. You have to love yourself too. Nicely penned.

Chris

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your kind review, Chris,
j.

[Tania Mo]

Love yourself first.Even at the mirror. Maybe we need just us.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

I have often debated that idea, Tania...still unsure of the answer.
thank you,
j.

[andrew mitchell]

One has to be kind to oneself before one can reach out.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

so true, andrew,
j.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

The power of the mind to distract and dissuade and pull us into our psychological caves is awesome. mental defence mechanisms have a lot to answer for. The fourth stanza is simply divine Jacob!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your kind review, John,
j.

[Coyote Poetry]

I agree Jacob.
"I remembered myself
myself
and then wrapped my arms tightly
around the real love of my love
self-hugs
feel real good"
Few hugs received lately. A self-hug is needed. Hello my friend and thank you for sharing the amazing poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you, Coyote, appreciate your kind thoughts,
j.

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome Jacob.