if only to breathe

if only to breathe

 

 

your cesarean birthed my black heart

onto a bed of bleeding interrogation

questions like umbilical cords that won't let go

 

infant poetry trying to find open air 

but the static of your indifference

made love inaudible

 

i wanted you to call in with an answer

but my radio show was canceled

before you could respond,

and i was left to ponder

 

if you ever even listened once

or just played your iTunes

over my voice

so your conscience wouldn't skip a beat.  

 

 

 

erin-cilberto

10/8/16

Reviews

[Nisreen]

we fall in love
put everything out there
and its not about expectations
but its hoping for a response
for that world to turn around and for this magic of love to kick in
and sometimes it takes time

love takes time

thanks for sharing this beautiful piece

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your kind words, Serendipity.
j.

[Lyn Anderson]

Such vivid imagery of struggle in the second stanza. Easier to play tunes than face the music. One question, did you mean you instead of your in the first line, or to omit the my? Very different connotations to each.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

no...i meant it exactly as written..."your cesarean birthed..."
second word as subject doing the action.

thank you, KL...

j.

[Lyn Anderson]

Ok, thank you for clarifying.