the purge

 

the purge

 

 

 

 

i'm a bulimic heart

when i dine on love,

part of me heaves it right out of my system

 

don't want the weight of a relationship

feel safer with thinner inner feelings

goodbye is my favorite meal

 

easier to digest

and less embarrassing 

when i can hide in my own commode

of fear.

 

 

 

erin-cilberto

6/16/16

Reviews

[Marianne Rose]

Yeah- the love you're talking about is like the high a bulimic gets when throwing up- a fake euphoria that feels empty, and therefore safe, afterward. An apt description of addictive love and the aftermath. This poem feels angry. Another level of the parallel- bulimics probably feel intense rage - stuffing and purging what they turn to in expressing it. I like it, the phrasing haunts me like it wants to be memorized, but I don!t really want to remember it's rawness and honesty.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your insightful review, Marianne...
j.

[James]

"commode of fear"...Some people are scared of the relationship...is it fear of failure, or fear of being tied to one person? I wonder which? This is interesting, i know a lot of people like this, never able to stay with the same person very long, even if they really like them.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

when i was younger,, i think it was fear of the latter...which is unfortunate...let my truest love out of my life because of it.

but we move on just like time...new ticks of the clock, new relationships.

j.

[Tomás Ó C..]

Interesting way of expressing a commitment issue!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank Tomas....

j.

[Carolynn]

A sad disorder indeed - fear of being hurt, just like fear of gaining weight makes one purge as a false sense of protection I suppose. Where you come up with all your ideas I will never understand but I must say it's always enjoyable to read them :)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your kind review and understanding of the "meat" of this...

j.

[Shabeeh Haider]

When a relationship leaves a bad taste in your mouth it is better to purge yourself off it. Easier said than done.
I like your use of phrases here. You have said so much in such a light tone.
Not at all easy when you are saying good bye

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your kind words, Shabeeh.

j.

[Nisreen]

The eating disorder where one finds comfort in danger and death
Very much like a person refusing to be in love
Taking That gentle héart to a Life grave
What a sad réality of self inflicted pain ?!!!

You bring this reality With such clarity

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your kind review, Curiosity,
j.

[Pryde Foltz]

I am laughing here ... at the cleverness of your toilet humour. Very funny:)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you, Pryde,
j.

[Gaurav]

the escapism in love is a cruel friend...escapism, though, let us meet us..nice work

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your words, Gaurav.

j.

[Raylene]

I must say you got my attention I thought it was going to be more horror than of a tale of relationships but it is still great how a relationship makes us uneasy great work

[jacob erin-cilberto]

thank you for your kind review, Infinity.
j.

[Raylene]

Anytime dear