Queen of Diamond Hearts

I am still trying to wrap myself around the toxic waste
In which I was surrounded and got pounded with excuses of replace
Ment, of course it's nothing you meant, the taste of wet cement
Where's the sense in sit the mental bench until you get confident
When I'm sitting here watching her just bobble it
But I guess it doesn't matter, sitting here watching it all splatter
If it eases your aches pour the concrete over your mistakes
A layer of cake to hide what has already been put in place
The high stakes we failed to make
Chrome hydraulic brakes could not even stop this unfortunate earth quake
Go on say what I'm used to doing, what I tend to always do
Do you want the truth
It's nothing beautiful got me labeled disabled something uncouth
Envisioning whispers out of mouths that share the same skin
Now tell me what's really been festering deep within
Much to my chagrin a monster born
And only two attend the funeral dressed for
Morning burial before battle
Is rather something that'll no doubt shatter every ounce of life
How quick the feeling fades
But how my heart beats fast
Faster than a jet plane
Echoes of vitamins aint got the strength to calm what you call nerves
So superb or tell me how it all began to swerve
Spark, a breath of fresh air lost
Name me what I used to be
My thoughts begin to criss cross creating a mental knot
Two shooting stars deprived of light
Wrong not right these decisions cost the sprouting seed
You planted it
This is not what we need
But I've come to realize I will never settle about alot of dealings
Got me begging for an internal upswing thinking about how much these feelings
Hurt
Because it's just how it is, there's nothing we can change
Except the enduring exchange of textured touch
And it doesn't seem like much
Life
The magnitude of how fearful we become
And if we let the beat of the drum control our lives
Mouth to mouth a strategic design to revive
But what can make these fine five survive
We all feel afraid at some point
The ego meets Mr. Disappoint with open ears since fear like a pioneer as it settles is sincere
Refusing to disappear without a sound without a sight we realize our eyes are useless
We need to feel
The fear as being okay, giving up in letting go because the hope that flows
Determines our outlook
But nothing is ever okay
There is no instruction book
The importance should be put in the bonds be build
Because without them we will never even believe we will be okay
And believing is everything
It's something you can't force feed
We have no choice but to put aside the constant greed
Ignore the misleading tug that makes us believe we will ultimately succeed
One hundred miles an hour, falling at full speed
The only thing that feels cool falling free, the snow outside
So fresh, holding the rush of emeralds in hurts my pride
At best, I'm still coming down, diamonds fall from my frozen crown
Yet jersey cold gives me something to hold
Reminds me of my skin
I wanna be
Safe and thin
Her heart is glowing and she's waiting until she knows how again