Conception of Love

To think you are in love and to realize it is all a fabrication of what someone else wanted you to believe. Real love does not hurt but mistakes do.

The love of a woman to a man, as a man to a woman Body to body, breath to breath. The way he made her feel way back when.  He was her heart's desire, her body stayed on fire for him.

Busy being foolish, stupid and blind to see, he would never be more than he was to her. To have one special person in his life and it was not her. He never told her that,  He showed her that, she had no choice but to see.

Everyone takes a portion in his or her life to soul search, she has found who she was. Still searching, finding and discovering new things about her every day, Things he will never know of.  She is alone, she made it that way. Alone she is better, safer, stronger, and will succeed on her own better and faster.

She was okay with accepting this for herself in life, she made it this way. She thought she found the one she wanted for life but she saw he could never be hers.  Only after she gave herself completely in ways she never thought she would give herself to any one person, emotionally, spiritually and sexually.

Doing all she could so that he never forgets and never leaves but forgetting this one thing.  Maybe he will never leave her, but at the same time, he will never completely be hers.

One day realizing he was never really with her, so how could he leave? After wiping away, the tears that never seem to stop or go away. It is at that moment she realizes it never was what she wanted it to be. Nor, will it ever be anything more than nothing.

You cannot make love from nothing, so how did she love him?

All that she gave of yourself, “Wasted” time.

Although she tried to put others in his place, it never worked. Not one man could ever be him, as imperfect as he may have been to her at the end of it all, truth be told, not one man could ever be him.

To not break herself free from this never-ending cycle.  Cycle of feeling empty and alone, although he says he love her.

She now knows it is not true. At least not the way she loved him. Do not try to make her think she was more than nothing, life shows her different and she believes life over him.

If he saw her tears, would he feel ashamed for her, or for himself?  Would he embrace her in her time of need? At one time she needed him, the one in her heart  but he was not there.

All her fears went away, now in her heart she loves herself.  She made it that far, the rest should go smoothly. Allowing herself to see and believe he loved her and for that she blames herself.

When she got to a certain point and the pain started to get dull. That is when her sight became clear, all the things she did not see before.

Once they were so close, or she thought they were.  Spent a lot of time together but more time apart. So how did she lose the part of him she had such a tight hold on? She found herself that is how.

For her to get him was a struggle a true challenge, she cherished him because too her he was worth it. Now seeing him as a lesson learned, and although it has many years since. She now knows she can love and truly be loved back. Life goes on whatever the situation or the pain. Time changes and nothing remains the same.  She thought he was a friend too her, but the truth be told he was nothing more than a memory in the making.

One day, one day, she will find that true friend to be everything to her, with a sincere heart and truthful words, with actions that are honest and real.

One day she will know love again, because through him, she knows what love is not!

Reviews

[Chris]

This is a rough piece. The emotion IS present and readily visible within the lines and by your word choice BUT there are also flaws that detract from the impact of your thoughts. I suggest rereading from the very beginning - aloud. Read sentence by sentence, as YOU have them marked ...slowly. The repairs needed won't take long and you will strengthen the work.

[The Vintage Nail]

Thank you and I will look into it. Appreciate it

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Wow this was very deep, I felt the heart speak a lot in this write. Awesome job:)

[The Vintage Nail]

Thank you for the time you took to read it and your comment is very appreciated.

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Your very welcome