QUESTIONING MYSELF!

Am i good enough for the kinda love i deserve?
Im always so open should i have stayed reserved?
I cant be alone though, because i feel im to weak,
Im confused with what i want, what do i seek?

Am i good enough for life in itself,
My book has just stayed up on its shelf.
Then again, i am filling it in but its such a bore,
I feel like my life needs so much more.

Am i good enough to beable to get a home and self support,
Iv waisted enough time, and life is defiantly way to short.
But i feel so confused and lost in this place,
I wish i could crave and enjoy my own space.

Am i good enough for the people i love,
Do i really help, when push comes to shove.
Or do i just make there lives even harder to bear,
And i dont want to be a burden thats not at all fair.

Am i good enough to get a job, that i can contain,
Or is a life of the unemployed, where i will forever remain.
Is my memory to fucked, is my mind just clustered,
Im very stressed out, feel pathetic and flustered.

Im not good enough for myself, of this i am sure,
I have let myself down so many times before.
I feel like ill always be stuck in my ways, as i dont know how to change,
Ill just keep living these day's, i feel so god darn strange.

Am i good enough? Will i ever live upto my full potential,
I think allot of things need to change in my life, thats essential.

Reviews

[barleygirl]

This is the best portrayal of self-doubt I've ever read! You nail this in the voice of a person who is simply pondering, rather than a more dramatic rendition that some poets might offer, using harsh self-recriminations. Your questioning feels like this narrator is teetering on the fence of believing in him/herself & being thrust into paralyzing doubt. That tension makes reading this poem feel intense, even tho your sentiments are understated (not full of drama). Love this! Everyone feels this way for parts of life . . . believing in ourselves is where most everything in life begins! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

I love your reviews, they mean allot. Glad you enjoyed thos piece so much

[barleygirl]

My pleasure . . .