IS IT WRONG???

I have a wonderful boyfriend whom I love with all my heart,
Is it wrong... That i sometimes wish I could go back to the start.
About four years back where i was single and free,
Is it wrong... that I somtimes wish, I still could be.

When I was single I just sat and solked, wanting and waiting for love,
Was I wrong... not to open my eyes, and be free, fly like a dove.
I could hang out with all the guy mates i desired,
No worrying about anyone else, and no rules reqired.

I could have dated a guy without a temper, or a guy with much emotion,
Am I wrong... to have gone down that little river, without exploring the ocean.
I feel I have now missed out on the life of being single,
All because I didn't take advantage of it, I didn't mingle.

Though how was I meant to know my prince would get here so quick,
It just so happens my first real relationship seems like the right pick.
Would it be wrong... to sometimes sit and wonder, to wish and to think,
That I hadn't of wished my single life away in just a single blink.

Is it wrong to have these thoughts,
Is it wrong to feel this way,
Is it wrong in any sorts,
that this is what i say.

Is it wrong... that I still keep him in the dark to this day,
Is it wrong... that he doesn't know, but if he did, what would he say.
Is it wrong... and if it is, I don't know what to do.
But i know none of this is worth loosing you.

Because in my heart I know whats right, and thats what we have together,
I love you with everything, I have in me. our love, will never tether.

Reviews

[Tabby Mac]

I love the honest heart displayed here! I wondered this same thing many a years back and was not as strong as you. I learned the hard way that what I had was in deed right for me. But it was too late to turn back. Years, pain, and lessons were had until I got another chance at true love. Now I know longer wonder but the cost was great.
I'm proud of your honesty and your strength! We can all wonder but to deny its power is commendable! Great topic! Written so pure, innocent and raw! Well done!
Tabby

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

I dont think im a strong person at all so for u to think or see that in my writing shocks me but also makes me happy.
Thanks for the amazing review much appreciated

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

Also im very glad you're happy now :)

[Tabby Mac]

It's not weak to feel or question. It is weak to act on feelings, questions, temptations in life! Your poem speaks your strength!
❤

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

Awwww thank you :)

[Happy hours]

it Happened with me as well. You are not wrong.
Amazing and wonderful piece.

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

Glad you can relate.
Thanks for another review :)

[moonlit_cove]

Wow! This is awesome! So honest and so well written. I think that everyone has experienced this feeling at some time or another, no matter how perfect of a relationship they are in at the time. Whether they admit to it or not is another issue altogether. In my single years I longed for a relationship - in my relationships I always thought about the things I didn't have time to do anymore. You know the old saying, "The grass is always greener..." After getting married, I came to the realization that I need to enjoy what I have even if it means giving up some of the hobbies and things I used to enjoy spending time on. Do I miss those things? You bet, but as you stated at the end of your poem, what we have is what's right! Thanks for writing what many of us are thinking, but are afraid to put on paper.

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

Im glad you like my poetry that much.
Yer its who i am i am extreamly honest and i leave no secrets to the world i would spill my guts to a stranger haha.
Glad you like my honesty.
Thanks again :)

[moonlit_cove]

I think that is a good personality trait to have. :-)

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

Thank you :)

[Jamestown]

You are not wrong at all.
Everyone wishes and wonders (human nature)
I'm just happy to hear that you have someone
near and dear to you, everyone deserves to love
and be loved:) thx for sharing and b-blessed!

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

Thanks for the wonderful review james :)

[WittyWonka]

Ah, you are quite human. This happens to all of us, at some point in time. I don't think it is wrong at all. What really counts is where you are now. We all look back - sometimes with longing and other times with regret. As has been said already, it is the honesty in your work that speaks volumes to me. Love it!

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

All the wonderful reviews I got on here and reassurance is wonderful :)
I'm glad to know so many people feel like this and I am not alone, and its not wrong :)
Thanks for the wonderful review.
Glad you like my honesty, I guess it comes out in my writing as well :)

[WittyWonka]

It most certainly does. You are welcome! :)

[Manu]

Wow, i really liked this one. Very well written !!

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

thank you very much :)

[Nathan D Baker]

And it will happen again and go away and then again.. Life, love, even death are you make it!! I myself have been single for nearly4 yrs.. Sometimes I hate but mostly it's great.. I only have myself to worry about

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

Thank you for the review :)

[barleygirl]

The best thing about this message is the self-honesty. I always feel the best writing has to start with digging down deep . . . tell us something about yourself that takes a little courage! (Which you've done here). Starting with your relatable title & refrain "Is it wrong?" (Which shows us the uncertainty mixed with regret that everyone feels about SOMETHING!) . . . you take each inner truth & examine it in front of us, being quite uninhibited in your exploration of your love life so far, letting the reader draw his/her own conclusions, as well as stirring up some of our own uncertainties & regrets *smile* The rhyme & rhythm, tho not starched in perfection, is interesting & reads well.

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

Thank you very much for your review. For some people that love to write it is still hard to write about there feelings, to be so honest and real, so for some people it takes allot of courage. Where as me id spill my life story to someone I quite like and haven't known for long at all, everyone is different.
Thank you again for your review much appreciated

[barleygirl]

Some people don't spill their guts in their writing becuz they are not in the habit of being honest with themselves about how they really feel about anything. They may appear to "open up" easily, but it's not the gut-level truths you share, becuz you're being honest with yourself first.

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

This is true :).
Thank you again for your review

[I Am Svetlana]

I'm sure many have this heartache feeling of still wishing to be single again. I've been with my boyfriend for almost two years, and often wish I could go back and have it never happen...to be single & free. To not have to worry about the things you do or if they'll affect your partner or how they'll view you. Relationships are tough work & it hurts to want to be single again, but it feels unreal to have your first relationship actually work out and seem right. Just take it day by day and be honest with each other. If it's true, then he will choose to stay with you, despite any steering thoughts you may have. I'm sure you're doing just great, but don't let your thoughts wander off too far or else you could eventually fall into a danger zone. But no honey, it isn't wrong to have such feelings like these while in a relationship...we all have them at some point. Just gotta keep your chin up, be honest with yourself and push on through it.

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

That was an amazing review thank u so much. Idk what to say just thanks. Glad u can relate and glad to know these feelings are normal and im not doin anything wrong.

[D]

I'd say it's not wrong, why would it be wrong to dream, to think?,(Just don't tell your boyfriend. lol. he might get it wrong.) We're only human after all.

But, if you're sure you've made the right pick...Stick to him.
I'm really no one to tell you what choice to make. just my two cents. well penned.

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

I ended up showing him it. he wanted to see I'm so open I can't help it I tell him everything, and I like to share everything with him, he was dying to see it he loves my poetry. I was nervous when he read it, but he didn't take it that bad actually.
Thank you for your review. I'm glad everyone is telling me its normal to feel that way makes me feel better.

[D]

well it is normal :)
you're welcome :)