Dose of fear

strange realizations

Dose of fear

This dose of fear was good
for me; just a lesson I misunderstood.
Please, give me one more chance,
just another piercing glance,
for you never looked me in the eyes
ever again. I promise no more lies.

Fear became my strangest convection,
manifested through introspection,
for I lost you in my innocence,
in my ignorant impatience.
You became my reason
in this Autumn season.

This fear pushes me to react
somehow against this fact,
that I long to erase my shame
and have you call out my name,
but with my memories on your side,
I would always run away and hide.

Maybe, just maybe I'll wave my hand
and you probably will never understand.
I wish to erase your bad memories
of me, atleast keep daily courtesies,
and simply have you smile
at me, just once in a while.