I'm A Monster

 

I have no more to say

Other than I'm sorry

But words mean nothing

When spoken by a monster

 

I didn't mean it

When I put my hands on you

I shook and sputtered apologies

But that makes me no less of a monster

 

I can say I'm sorry over and over again

But it wont stop that moment from happening

The fear in your eyes, the fear in mine

A moment created by a familiar face, a monster

 

Do you think I enjoyed it?

When I hurt you like I did?

Do you think it made me feel good?

Do you think I'm a monster?

 

I'm not like that

I never have been

But I have my moments

An angel turning into a monster

 

I have no one

I've lost everything

And of course, you made sense of it all

"I wonder why!" you shout, because I'm a monster

 

So I'll crawl back under your bed

And close my eyes and cry without a sob

Without a word

And resume my life as a monster

 

 

Author's Note

I finally see what I've become.

Reviews

[Keevan]

I know for a fact you aren't a monster, hun. I can't think of any other words to describe this piece. Raw emotion. I can feel the frustration and sadness. Wonderful write.

[Veritatis Cupitor]

"I'm not like that
I never have been
But I have my moments
An angel turning into a monster"

whoa, intense read here. full of much sadness and regret. You make it easy for us to feel these emotions too. to remember times of our own where we've felt the same. in our own eyes, when regret enters our life.. gosh, its like a deep sharp pain, stabbing ourselves sometimes..

[EverEmma]

We all have our inner demons that need to hide under the bed sometimes and just cry. I know how that feels. When you have no one and nothing it's easy to become what we despise. Stuttered apologies and fear in ones eyes does not justify what one has done but is recognition of something done wrong. Very straightforward and executed without flaw. True or not I have gotten the chance to see you after you climbed our from under the bed and I think you are a wonderful person.

[Enigma]

Very nice poem

[State of Grace]

Awesome poem but you are defiantly not a monster.

[MadeCheaply]

im pretty sure your not a monster. But good poem.

[Zeitgeist Manifesto]

This poem brings back haunting memories.
You expressed the regret without flaw.