Chapter 31: Recoil

Point of View: Koda

 

 

 

"C'mon honey, you have to eat something."

 

It's been three days since I gave birth to a lifeless shell of a human. Even now as I sat cross legged at the dining table I could still feel the blood escaping my body. The smell is so suffocating that my stomach twists and turns as it takes away my appetite. The food in front of me is disgusting, even though its my favourite dish. I can't eat it.

 

Edward is angry with me. I'm not eating anything he's making. Supper is the last thing on my mind. To me, why eat if my baby can't eat it with me? It's a messed up notion, I know, but it's the notion that  drives me to continue to starve myself.

 

Edward slams his fork down on the table in frustration. "Koda, what's it going to take to get you to eat?" he asks. I say nothing, and he grunts. "It's dead, alright? We have to move on. If we let this stop us from growing, then you might as well hand over your ring now," he says, his eyes ablaze with pure anger. I look down and not dare to meet his gaze. His gives a small sigh. "S-Sorry. I didn't mean that. Forgive me," he says a second later. I nod, but again say nothing. I can't. My tounge is too numb.

 

"But seriously," he says a minute later, "you've gotta eat something. At the rate you're going..." he started, but must have figured that the word choice was insensitive, because he stopped. I look up at him and slowly, quietly, snake my fingers with his over the table top. Edward's eyes glow a soft pale gold as he looks back at me. "I...I'm sorry Edward. I guess I couldn't do it....or wasn't....ready," I speak slowly and softly, almost as if I was afraid of overworking myself.

 

"Its okay. I'm not upset."

"You're dissapointed though."

"Of course I am, but it's not like its your fault."

 

I grunt. Why wasn't he understanding?

 

Why wasn't he blaming me?

 

I stand up and not dare to meet his gaze. "Koda?" he asks, but I say nothing. I dash to my room and slam the door shut. He's calling for me, but I pretend not to hear.

 

 

Reviews

[Veritatis Cupitor]

wow "I gave birth to a lifeless shell of a human." truly like the blunt delivery here.
It reminds me of something else too. "You are a little soul carrying about a corpse, as Epictetus used to say.

[Keevan]

I didn't even know this was posted! Aww, poor Koda. :(

[MadeCheaply]

FINALLY!!! Iv'e been checking for the next chapter and TA-DA :D

[Rae]

I've personally never lost a baby(or even got pregnant for that matter) so I can't really imagine the loss that she feels. Poor Koda. :(

[State of Grace]

Aw :( First they lose the baby and now Ed's worrying about losing Koda. Great chapter! :)