Chapter 29: Supression

Maybe I just didn't accept it.

Or maybe I genuinely didn't understand.

But whatever the reason, I stood there, mouth open and eyes wide.

 

Part of me wanted to leave, to believe it was all a dream and that I'd wake up soon. But another part of me wanted to kick and to scream just as Koda was now. She was practically losing her mind in front of me.

 

"How...?" I ask, looking at Brother. He turned to me, his eyes heavy. "We...we don't know. We had just gotten home when Koda thought she went into labor but..." his voice cracked, and he slid to the floor and began to cry again.

 

I slowly shook my head in disbelief. "But you said the baby was healthy...the doctors all said--"

 

"All the signs pointed at a healthy delivery, Alphonse!! But for whatever reason it didn't happen! It's dead, the baby is dead!!" Brother suddenly shot up and screamed at me. Being reminded must have hurt, because I could have sworn Koda's screaming got louder.

 

The room was a mess. Brother eyes were ablaze with anger and guilt, and Koda had now resorted to sobbing loudly in the hospital pillow.

 

I feel eyes on me, so I turn and see Ayumi peeking through the door. The eye I can see is wide in horror. I turn and look back at Brother, who was now holding his wife and stroking her back while she sobbed uncontrollably over his shoudler. "I...I don't...I can't believe..."I spoke again, but Brother's eyes told me just to stop.

 

So I did.

 

"You guys I am so sorry...I really am..." I say as I turn the doorknob. Koda looks up, her mouth agape. "No!! Don't leave me!! You can't go!!" she shouted, and Brothers grabs her flailing arms and holds her against him. "Koda let him go...he's...he's got nothing to do with this..."

 

I don't know why, but something inside of me snapped.

In the next moments, I saw nothing but my hand grabbing bunched up fabric, and the next thing I know Brother is on the ground cringing in pain.

 

"How dare you say I have nothing to do with it! Koda's my sister-in-law! Of course I have something to do with it! I've been more of a family to her then you ever have or ever will be!! I was here before you, I'll be here long after!! So if she doesn't want me to leave then I wont because thats what SHE wants, not what YOU want!!!"

 

The room goes quiet. Even Koda has stopped.

Brother stares at me in shock.

 

I sit for a minute, trying to process what I had just said. Why did I say those things...?

 

I take a breath and hold my hand out. "I...I'm sorry Brother I don't know what came over me. I just...I guess this is hitting me rather hard..." I began as I helped Brother up. Koda looks up at me, the ocean insider her eyes once again beginning to overflow. I turn around. "I love you, Koda, and I love you too Brother. I'll pray for you," I say as I walk out the door.

 

 

Ayumi stands there, looking at me. "Alphonse..." she begins, but I cover my mouth with my coat collar.

 

"We need to go."

 

 

She stands there for a moment, and I turn to look at her.

 

The realization of what I had just done hits me, and I burst into tears.

 

Ayumi is shocked at my sudden mood change. She stands and watches as I cry like I have never cried before. "Alphonse...Alphonse..." she tries to speak to me, but I'm too far gone to hear her. I cover my eyes and sob for a good while before I feel her arms wrap around me in a tender hug.

 

I don't even question it. I wrap my arms around her and cry into her shoulder.

 

I cry and I cry and I cry.

Reviews

[State of Grace]

Oh no everythings gone wrong! DX

[Rae]

....oh... my... gosh... Al really DID just snap... So much tragedy. TT^TT

[Keevan]

Oh, poor Koda and Edward and Alphonse. Ooh, dear Tragedy.