Awhile Ago [Let The Sun Rise Without Me]A Poem by Emunah June.I made up a story About being harassed online Said "it wasn't me, no Mother, I would never."
I promised them I was okay.
My blood dripped down Down Down And I knew my mind wasn't where it should be But the idea
Oh, that idea,
I had to try.
That night, I told him "I want to die. I'm going to kill myself. What good am I anymore?"
And for that moment He wished to play hero And begged me "No, Tama, no, don't do it, I beg you!"
But the taste of pills refused to leave my mind
I wanted to die. I was going to kill myself. What good was I anyway?
And I told him "Goodnight," and then just like that
(where did this pill bottle come from?)
I was standing on the fence of hell and pretending
TAKE TWO BY MOUTH.
I decided on four. Four sounded easy, sounded round.
Like those perfect sqaures taught to me in class. Those classes where I feel so stupid, so forgotten, So left alone.
We will not be sponsoring her. No money. No her. No. no.
And my self worth was gone. And that idea of "I want to marry him" Wouldn't leave me.
That idea "Mom."
And I stopped. And I put that bottle down. And I saved my life.
And the hero was still there. And I told him I was alive. That Sadly I was alive
I fell to the mattress And told myself to rest, to forget To pretend it never happend.
But the idea of a morning Of a morning Where the sun rises alone And I am just a splash of vomit and forgotten orchestra Where everyone can forget me.
It seemed like such a good idea.
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