Abandonment [Raw & Uncut]

 

 

Dear Amanda,

 

Remember me? We were friends at one time.

Hung out, slept over

Told each other secrets and shared good laughs in Newspaper Club

Watched anime together, remember?

And remember how to so easily forgot about me

When you made those cooler and more popular friends?

Shamed me, did me wrong?

All to make yourself feel better?

 

 

 

 

Dear Cheyenne,

 

Remember me? We used to be super close.

Hung out all the time, held each others hands when we were scared

Telling me "don't look!" when you knew it'd be better for me

Laughing, smiling

And remember how you lied to me? About everything?

Big things, small things, whenever it suited you best?

Believing I was bulletproof, removing that threatening link

Even though I did nothing but support you?

 

 

 

 

Dear Matt,

 

I cannot be more disgusted with you.

Remember when you told me you'd be with me forever

Yet you kept me a secret so no one would know about us?

Letting those girls, those bullies

Taunt me, hurt me, tell me I wasn't good enough

Telling ME that it was my fault?

Then you dare get mad when I finally find a boy

Who treats me right?

 

 

 

Dear Sperm Donor,

 

I hate you.

I hate everything you did and everything you do.

You touched me, hurt me, made me believe I was a mistake

I was only a child, then! Only a child!

You did me wrong, you did my mother wrong, you did my baby sister wrong!

You're a waste of space and breath to anyone that crosses paths with you!

I hate you! I hate you! Oh my God, do I hate you!

Why weren't you the father you were supposed to be?!

Rather, you're a sick freak who likes harming little kids!

 

 

 

 

Dear Jasmine,

 

I can't say I didnt see this coming.

You've become someone I really do not want to know.

You have volatile and vicious behaviours

A person I used to call a friend whom I dont even know anymore

My choices do not matter to you

Nor do my opinions

Putting yourself on a higher level all because you're older than me

Let me make myself clear in saying that you do not know all you think you do

Because you're too blinded by ego to see what is really going on.

 

 

 

 

Dear Jordan,

 

Where did the time go? Where did YOU go?

We used to be just two little kids, going to school and making fond memories

Playing pretend, visiting homes, smiling at each other's jokes

And you were a sweet friend, such an amazing person

You and I, we made a mistake, I understand

But that part is over now.

Why do you choose to ignore me, to pretend I don't exist?

Am I invisible to you?

Why do you refuse to answer my screaming?

 

 

 

Dear Girls In My Class,

 

Why am I not included in conversations?

Bonfires, dances, parties?

Am I too ugly, too much of an eyesore?

Am I not allowed to partake in the same happiness as you?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Why is it that everyone can so easily abandon me?

 

 

 

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Bluefire]

>.> I know how you feel. Many of the paragraphs, I can relate to..
And I'm here to say:
Those girls in your class don't include you in their little get togethers because they're totally envious of you! You're way pretty and smart!
That dude Matt, is a scumbag. He obviously didn't know what a special person he had love him.
And that "father" is another scumbag who will never know the happiness of fathering two sweet little girls.
And those "friends" who just up and forgot you, yeah they were jerks who didn't deserve you.
Great write. I love the truth and emotion in it and am glad you trusted enough to share this piece. Well done! ^^

[MadeCheaply]

I found out something new about you today.
Very gripping, I could feel the emotion as I read.

[Rae]

I like all the different relationships that this poem included. Some of them really got me angry, like Matt and the Sperm Donor. All of them were really sad though, in my opinion. People change and sometimes it isn't for the better. You just have to keep your head up high and believe good people can still be found in this world. ^^ Amazing, as usual!