me or you

i wrote this in a half depressed state of mind...i have no clue how to describe it other then its moving...plz do not think im crazy just understand

'are there?' yes 'but how could it be?' i dont know 'could it ever be' well it has

'would you ever tell me' no 'even if i was your best friend?' no 'why' i have no answer

'best friends tell each other everything' yes 'i've told you everything' is that true? 'no...'

'are you asleep' i'll never sleep 'do you want to sleep' only to stop the pain 'what pain?' come here and i'll show you

'how do you stop somthing you cant see' you dont 'how do you except it' you cant 'can i stop it' only if you leave forever

'could you ever love me' i dont know 'will you ever hurt me' only wen needed 'would you hurt me just for fun' i dont know...

'im your best friend' yes 'if i told you everything could you tell me everything' no 'why' because you would leave

if you get to know me you'll be scared of me 'no i wont' then why are you backing away 'i have somewhere else to be' will you come back? 'no...'

'dont tell her i love her' but you do 'but what if she doesnt love me' theres only one way to find out 'but shes gone' then go after her 'shes dead' and thats stopping you?

'could you stop me' depends what your doing 'going to sleep' for how long 'forever...' 

dont fall asleep 'why' because you may not wake up 'but im so tired' then i'll sleep with you

were there? 'no' is there? 'no' will there ever be 'never' 

'you look sad' i am 'can i help' no 'but i want to' i have to be strong 'not around me..'

'what happens if you let your gaurd down' i become depressed and dont know whats going on 'do you let your gaurd down around me?' yes 'does it hurt you' yes 'then why let your gaurd down 'because i love you'

will there be a chance for me 'no' but what if i 'never' but i thought you cared 'i used to'

does there seem to be hope 'for the small few' are we within the small few 'no' what do we do then 'nothing' but im scared 'so am i'

dont cry 'why' because no one should cry alone 'but i am' no your not...

'dont take your eyes off what you cherish most' can i blink 'i wouldnt' then i will never blink wen i see you '...'

could i get what i wanted? 'what do you want' for you to see the real me 'i've seen it the whole time' but i've been hiding 'not from my eyes' 

what do you see 'the real you' how can you see somthing i dont even see 'the same way you see the real me' oh...

can i hide 'why would you' because im scared 'of what' of him 'but hes not that bad' its not that its just him 'i dont understand' no one ever does

is there a way 'no' but i could find a way 'only if you want to disapear' but i do...

'never say you cant' ok then i can not 'dont say that either' i am not able to 'or that' the opposite of can 'fish?'

can you see me 'no' but before you said you could 'well i see threw you' does that mean you care 'no' what does it mean 'it means i see who you are and who you can be' but if you cant see me then how do you know if im here 'because i can touch you still'

'whats his name' i dont know 'why do you love him' he sees me 'i see you do you love me' no 'why' your just here 'what do you mean' i dont love you its more then words will ever fill and you will never know 

stop caring for a jerk 'but he knows me like no one else' how much does he know you 'he knows me because he was my first everything' can he see you 'no' then hes not the one for you 'have you found the one to see through you' i dont know 'will you tell me if you do' depends if he says yes

'he stopped you from coming to me' he cares 'how much can he care if he sees you crying and cant shed 1 tear him self' but... 'forget him he hurt you' but its the only normalcy i know

'whats normalcy' not having to deal with other people crap 'i put up with yours' well you dont have to just walk away 'maby i will' if you do you'll lose me forever 'and i care why?' then leave...hello...hello...now i am uterly aloud in this dark world