once again

 once again clouds of sadness are over head 

returned has the feeling of wanting to be dead 

  life a beautiful struggle is it not 

   but where if the beauty in the lies, the sorrow, corpse to rot 

once again happiness is lost, I knew it wouldn't last 

everything is now back to how it was in the past 

engulfed with sorrow filled with pain 

all my efforts where all in vain 

once again abandoned and forlorn 

because her again I mourn 

was it all true, what she felt for me 

or was was it all imaginary 

was it to forget a lover old 

 matters not I already know I need be told 

t'was by her actions and words that gave her away

 her actions and words that told me in her heart he shall stay 

I am not quite certain if this was her true intent 

but certain I am she is a fallen angel hell sent