what i dont like

dislike hate and the truth

i don't like this, this hostile tension.
being ignored when i want your attention.
i don't like it when your voice isn't heard.
i don't like how we talk with typed words
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i hate this distance and how rare we meet
how it both blazes and cools passions heat.
i hate the fact i cannot speak
when i try its empty and weak.
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worst of all
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what i hate most right now more than anything
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is how i am dishonest with myself with how i feel, with everything.
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i say yes when i mean no and no when i mean yes
i give up what i want for others and for what is best.
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for once
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i'll be honest
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i am not happy.
i dont like this.
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how you're so far away how i can't feel your kiss.
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i hate that i can't touch you, cant hear your voice.
but due to the distance i have no choice.
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if i can hold you and kiss you in person i would
to spoil you, pamper you the way i should.
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though right now there is nothing i can do
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but its quite the opposite for you.