monster inside

selfish wants and lustful thoughts

just a want, not a need.
filled with lust, desire and greed.
always on my mind always in my thoughts.
because of this all the work was all for naught.
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devoured and crushed by selfish desire
now plummeting and tumbling into the fire
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what have i done, what did i do.
how could i do this, how could i do this to you.
when i realized it, it was to late.
once again myself I've come to hate.
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how can i mend this bond now fragile and weak.
a way to redeem my foolish acts is what i seek.
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but
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even when all is fixed and all is healed.
this monster in me wont be sealed.
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that soon enough it will wake
and all that, that has been fixed will one again break.